one OUNCE of image is heavier than one POUND of good performance

只想对你说...

2010-01-08T21:42:00.002+08:00

Take me where I've never been,
Help me on my feet again.
Show me that good things come to those who wait.
Tell me I'm not on my own.
Tell me I won't be alone.
Tell me what I'm feelin' isn't some mistake.
'cause if anyone can make me fall in love,
You can.

Save me from myself, you can.
And it's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
'cause if anyone can make me fall in love,
You can.

Baby, when you look at me,
Tell me, what do you see?
Are these the eyes of someone you could love?
'Cause everything that brought me here,
Well, now it all seems so clear.
Baby, you're the one that I've been dreamin' of.
'cause if anyone can make me fall in love,
You can.

Save me from myself, you can.
And it's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
'cause if anyone can make me fall in love...

Only you can take me sailin' in your deepest eyes.
Bring me to my knees and make me cry.
And no one's ever done this,
Everything was just a lie.
And I know, yes I know...

This is where it all begins,
So tell me it'll never end.
I can't fool myself,
It's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
Cause if anyone can make me fall in love,
You can.

Show me that good things come to those who wait

zero courage

2009-12-25T21:59:00.002+08:00

david u call urself a soldier.. where is the courage when you needed.. simple words and u have no guts to say it out.. damn disappointed with u david.. whole life with ur joker attitude nobody believe what you say.. haiz.. somebody teach david what to do..

anyway BKK was damn fun..

2009-11-04T23:38:00.001+08:00

i was running and the heavy rain came and i got stuck at Expo. it made me feel so emotional all of a sudden and this song played. how i wish i can have to courage to say all these. Aust in 2 days.. gonna miss u....

about church

2009-10-17T18:29:00.007+08:00

for those who are really concerned, the answer is yes. Yes i do have some issues with the church and that's wat's stopping me from committing back for now.. I've been contemplating whether to post something like that for a long long day.. I just wanna say i pity the founder and pioneers of this great church.. With all the right motives and dreams from God they build they church from scratch, only to have the church's reputation destroyed by people who played little part in bringing the great church to where it is today.. Let's not talk about the snobbish attitudes that some certain high ranking leaders have.. Let's start with the most basic.. I'm about to start to doubt the sincerity of certain 'good' friends whom i have over the 7-8 years in this place.. People who come and tell me to join their cell and tell me how much they're concerned about me and my life.. To put it across in a not very nice and spiritual manner, everybody knows how to talk but there's just so much words can do.. There's always a reason why people decide to leave and wat makes you think that just a conversation over msn is enough to convince the person to come back.. If it's really so easy then i wont leave at the first place.. If you think being in church, or the limelight that you receive as a leader makes you all spiritual and on fire and puts you in a superior position then others then i'm very sorry you're wrong.. I read a book that accurately portray wat i wan to say.. It says When i'm in a dark tunnel, i want to be with people who love me, and walk with me, not stand outside and tell me how to walk out.. Dun get me wrong i'm perfectly fine with the church.. In fact i love the senior pastor and his teachings.. But it's black sheep like these people who created controversies for people outside to talk about.. It seriously helps more to be genuine and let the words of your mouth match the words of your heart.. Dun say you love until you really loved and only actions can show you love.. Controversies start from rumors and rumors always start from individuals.. People love to say that there is no perfect church or no perfect members, but dun let that be an excuse of not doing the right thing..
Having said all that, i muz say that i still love this church.. Simply bcoz God is in this church.. Been visiting a few places and there's nowhere like this church.. There are really sincere people around, some been with me since i stepped in years ago, you know who you are.. I'll stick around still bcoz despite all these stuff i've complain about, there still no place like chc and no one else can replace the God shaped void in my heart..

Resolution of The Year

2009-08-11T16:23:00.003+08:00

i remember at the start of the year i said i wanted to do something in 2009.. i've been training for the something for since the start of the year faithfully although there are times where i slack off abit but i dare to say that i've been consistent till this point in time.. this sunday is 1/2 of the something organized by my company but i cant go because i am on course and i got grading on monday so i cant strain my body too much.. kind of disappointed as this sunday will be a good gauge of how i will fare for the real something in dec.. but anyway today i took the big step and sign up for the real something and it is PAID & CONFIRMED!!

here i come, my number 1 resolution 2009! i wanna be a finisher! everyone say with me: DAVE CAN FINISH!

RESTART

2009-07-20T23:55:00.001+08:00

i wish i could depress the RESTART button and everything goes back to the beginning..

2009-07-15T06:11:00.002+08:00

this is not as easy as i think it would be.. Honestly i think trusting God would have been an easier choice.. But the decision have been made..

Why did i do wat i did.. Being in a vicious cycle of troubles and trials really made me very tired out over this few years.. One problem not settle, another come to haunt me.. "All things work for the good" sadly doesn't apply in my life.. Say i'm without determination, call me immature i dun care.. I need to step out of the cycle and see things in a rational perspective.. I want to try something different, since wat i have been doing dun seem to work, Why not.. I need the breakthrough bcoz the weight of the family is on my shoulders, and i cant be insane to do the same thing over and over and expect a different result..

Work sucks seriously.. I love the career but i hate the job.. It really sucks life out of me and i need a break from all the routine.. Routines that i do wkly just bcoz it is only right to be doing them bcoz of who i am and wat i believe.. I need to find that original purpose of doing it.. Thus i promise myself never to be a hypocrite.. Never do it unless i am fully convinced of it's purpose again..

I'm sorry to those who believed, and those who look up to me for what i believed.. The soldier need time and needs a clear mind, a new sense of purpose before he can fight again.. I apologise for those whom i've hurt in the process of making this decision.. If you still have trust for me, trust me..

soldier no more..

2009-06-28T20:27:00.003+08:00

the soldier could not find the much-needed courage and boldness to speak at the most crucial moment..

The wounded soldier could not fight for wat matters most anymore..

The tired soldier could not push on anymore..

Somebody pls tell me why am i hanging on..

passion

2009-05-07T21:35:00.002+08:00

i came across a quote today in my surprise bus ride back from camp.. i take bus ok.. it is an achievement.. but anyway.. Inspiration from TVMobile says this:

After you found your calling, you work easily, you never get tired..

this makes me think alot...

History Repeats Itself..

2009-05-06T10:41:00.003+08:00

If you wanna name it CHAMPIONS LEAGUE, then you got no choice but to expect this team to win it every single year!!

Mummy's angry!

2009-05-04T16:16:00.002+08:00

oh the mum of the-boy-who-cant-stop-running recently expressed her displeasure of the-boy who-cant-stop-running training intensity..

Mum: 你在兵营跑, 回来家里也跑.. 这样多人跑到死掉了你还不怕!

Sis: 对咯对咯!!!

Me: 我的新名字叫 THE BOY WHO CANT STOP RUNNING! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

The Boy Who Can't Stop Running

2009-05-01T22:45:00.010+08:00

Budhia Singh

The Four Year Old who Ran Forty Miles

Budhia Singh

The 4 Year Old who runs half marathons

Budhia Singh lives in Orissa, India where a third of the population live in slums and the state has the highest child mortality rate in India.

Since the age of three Budhia has been running 20 miles a day and is currently preparing to run a half marathon, his fifth in seven weeks.

Is Budhia's story an account of exceptional child talent or a darker tale of child exploitation.

His coach Biranchi Das, a local judo instructor, aims to train Budhia to become India's greatest marathon runner who will go on to win Olympic glory. His training regime begins at 4 o'clock in the morning in a typical blazing, misty dawn in Orissa.

His mother who worked as a maid for £3 a month has four children, of whom Budhia is the youngest. She was unable to feed and clothe them so took the heartbreaking decision to sell Budhia to a travelling peddler for £10. The peddler was a drunk who would beat the boy regularly. When Biranchi found him he was naked, wounded, and seriously underfed.

Biranchi Das

Budhia's talent for running was only discovered when Biranchi heard the young boy swearing at another of the Judo students. He ordered Budhia to run around the running track until he returned. Biranchi went out and forgot about the boy until his return six hours later. Incredibly, Budhia was still running!

Biranchi has no experience with athletics or long-distance running, but he has devised his own training programme which includes his belief that Budhia should not drink while running. He allows him energy drinks before and after a race, but never during one.

Budhia's coach wants him to take part in the Delhi half-marathon. No-one knows how he will cope with his first competitive race, but for Biranchi, it's an important step in his plan to turn Budhia into an elite, Olympic athlete.

On the day of the race, there is a problem. Budhia's fame has arrived before him, and with it controversy. He has been told that, due to International Rules, he can't run in the main race. He is so much the centre of attention that the race organisers agree to allow him to compete in the final event, a 6km race for all ages. At the after-race party, in the evening, he meets former Olympic champion Daley Thompson.

Tim Hutchins, the coordinator of the London Marathon, is outspoken: "Children shouldn't be training hard, for any sport, until they are fifteen or sixteen years old. For a child of three to be training hard is verging on the criminal".

Back in Orissa, the child welfare minister is taking a keen interest in the case. She thinks Biranchi is using Budhia's running talent and the media coverage to promote his own interests and believes the child's health will suffer. Biranchi disagrees and argues that he is trying toimprove Budhia's life. He is being properly fed, he is clothed, and he is receiving regular schooling.

Biranchi's plans are becoming ever more ambitious. He will have Budhia run from Puri to Bhubaneswar, then he'll run the marathon in Nayagarh, and from there they'll go to Milan. But, before this he will set Budhia an even greater challenge, one that will put him into the record books. He will run 70km, 42 miles, non-stop. With no water, this is a run that could put Budhia's life at risk.

If he succeeds, he will become the youngest endurance runner in the world, and there will be official observers ready to record his achievements.

On the day of the race, temperatures are expected to reach 90°F. Not even the elite Kenyan athletes run these distances in such temperatures.

Budhia has a police escort and medical backup. Six hours into the run and Budhia has covered 58km. Biranchi uses a water-bottle, like a carrot on a stick, to entice him to keep running. After 67km, Budhia stops. Exhausted and disoriented, the army doctor who has been overseeing the race, steps in. After a protracted delay, Budhia is taken to the central police stadium to recover. The army doctor is convinced Budhia is ill, suffering from convulsions and possible brain damage.

One of Many Lonely Sojourns

Despite stopping 3km short of the target, he has still set a new record and will go into the Limca Book of Records as the youngest ever endurance runner.

Biranchi insists that Budhia runs of his own free will, he likes to run, and is not coerced in any way. The authorities are not convinced. Three days later, on the basis of the Limca run, a police warrant is issued for child exploitation. Biranchi is arrested. He is ordered to bring Budhia to Capital Hospital where the child committee want him examined by sports scientists.

The medical team include a cardiologist, a paediatrician, a psychologist, and a psychiatrist. They found his pulse-rate high, his blood-pressure high, he was under-nourished, anaemic, and suffering a vitamin deficiency.

The child welfare minister has now banned Budhia from running any more marathons in the state.

source: http://www.mymultiplesclerosis.co.uk/misc/budhiasingh.html

this rekindled my fire of running Standard Chartered at end of this year! Call me the boy who cant stop running!

shag

2009-04-28T00:18:00.001+08:00

if this kind of training continues.. i tink i will have to say bye bye to my 22 years old fats in no time.. haiz.. 不舍得leh.. haiz..

my wife

2009-04-24T21:49:00.001+08:00

oh i am so mesmerised by this performance!!

2009-04-11T03:54:00.000+08:00

got this from http://philpringle.wordpress.com

convicted me in a way i nv felt for so long..

我不是你想像那麼勇敢

2009-04-08T03:36:00.001+08:00

小白 and I love this song so much.. we can sing it in the female high pitch key!

germany..

2009-03-23T00:09:00.002+08:00

going to germany in 24 hours time.. having mixed feelings.. tink alot of people know about my reluctance to go there.. program sucks and timing sucks.. 4 deg is not a very nice place to be in.. but reluctance is not the strongest emotion in my heart right now.. disappointment is.. i wish i could type the reason here.. i thought i was a very direct and frank person but this time i couldnt be the usual mean me..

some friends arent friends until they need you.. and when they have something which needs your help, you are suddenly appreciated.. or is it someone like me is not important enough? maybe i always treat people like that and now God is teaching me a lesson in return.. in any way, i am not hard up..

i still thank God for people like all in N398, shan hubert, my old ahs friends, even lynette and grace who bothered to meet up or even asked to meet.. really appreciate that.. meeting with lynette today really lifted my spirits up.. and even daryl from 48 sent me a msg.. i was really surprised..

oh this trip isnt gonna be fun and joy all the way.. tough times awaits me and i covet ur prayers. hope 2 wks end fast and i will be visiting castles and museums in Frankfurt in no time..

till then.. bye!

tired

2009-03-07T00:05:00.000+08:00

i am really tired..

mia

2009-03-01T16:18:00.002+08:00

long time since i updated anything here.. reason is bcoz i am really really really really very very very busy with work.. book out on sat or even sun mornings are so common.. then still got alot of things to study and to do even after book out.. i forgot when was the last time i sat down and watch tv.. high key events are almost coming to an end.. couple of field camps more and going to germany then it will be all.. i hope i can end this course soon and i really need to meet some friends after i get more free..

trouble

2009-01-11T15:19:00.004+08:00

i just said that troubles make a great man and i want to be a great man and troubles heard what i said so troubles came looking for me.. that was real efficient..

someone great..

2009-01-10T18:17:00.002+08:00

i was having an interview with my superior and was just telling him about the mountain of pressure in my life right now and he told me something..

Great people I know all had very difficult moments.. and it is going through these difficult moments that made those people great.. because they went through the moments and became stronger and they tell themselves, if I can go through something like that, I can go through anything! and i never know i may be sitting in front of one such person now..

God i really hope this is common grace at work.. let it be a prophesy in my life!

back!

2009-01-03T16:24:00.009+08:00

ok i am back blogging finally.. havent blog for a long long time as u can tell and reason is simply because i am too busy in this course.. for the first time i must say this course is really draining me away.. they say that it is only the beginning and the worst is yet to come but i am already feeling to stress and pressure.. pls keep me in prayers and i really hope to emerge victorious in 4 months time..

i've been reading as usual and the latest in my collection is this book by John O'Hurley called It's Okay To Miss The Bed On The First Jump and Other Life Lessons I Learnt from Dogs
.

great book teaching about the most important lessons that we can pick up from man's best friend's behavior when we humans "of higher intelligence" always miss out..

here's what it says:

it seems that in our search for a life with meaning, there is a paradox that sometimes we let things mean too much. not matter what you are trying to grasp, sooner or later you would have to let go..

it is through the focus on our purpose that we learn that the quiet confidence of what we are is enough.... but no award, title or accessory can give you the quiet sense of completion that comes from a healthy self image..

Piece of advice from a dog:
when someone stops petting you, move on!

talking about books, i am obsessed in buying till a point my reading cannot catch up with my buying.. so now i have like 10 books that are not touched and i just bought another book 10 min ago.. oh man.. i gotta read more and faster!! dont blame me, blame Borders!

oh ya my 2009 new year resolution number 1 is out and here it is:

i wanna be a finisher this year and i got exactly one year to train up! jia you!! my motto shall be DAVE CAN FINISH!

protection

2008-12-12T21:04:00.005+08:00

it just happened this thurs that i was having training and something slipped and landed on my left ring finger and i couldn't speak for few minutes bcoz it was so so so so so so damn painful.. it left me a red swollen left ring finger for the rest of the day and i cant carry anything heavy with my left hand until now.. and it so happen that my left hand is my master hand..

but thank God still amidst all the bad things that happened, He protected me and there is no fracture in the bone.. the something that landed on my finger is somewhere between 18-22 kg and my finger could have broke.. phew.. and also i thank God for a financial blessing that came in so timely.. :) i can really have a merry christmas now..

long weekend!!

2008-12-08T12:41:00.002+08:00

i really really hope that all these prophesies in the last 2 wks will come to pass.. otherwise i am really dead meat.. but since i committed to them, i am gonna trust and have faith in God..

LT Qinhui asked me what has God done for me, in an attempt to shake my faith last wk.. he was just kidding but i got something out of the conversation(or debate). at the very moment he asked me that qn, i was just like "ermz.. alot.." then he went on to say "like what?" and thankfully somebody interrupted our conversation.. i cant remember who was it or was it his hp that rang and i tink that interruption saved me from all possible embarrassments.. i definitely couldn't for sure say something which is solid enough to convince him of the goodness of God in my life.. well i know and i learnt how to share a proper testimony but i guess at that instance, "proper" is not enough for that man.. i always share testimony of my christian walk with people and they will be like "woah that is a solid testimony!" but the problem is the people who made those comments are always Christians themselves.. to them they believe God did it for me but how about those who do no share the same faith.. somehow i just feel that my life is not as compelling a testimony as i thought. so if i am not confident that it is gonna touch lives then it is really not going to touch lives.. i dunno if anybody understands what i am trying to say.. i know somebody is gonna come up and say "oh then u gotta let ur live be a living testimony!" haha that is not what i am refering to.. it is like how real is God in our lives? is He just as real as goosebumps u feel in church and cgm? is He just as real as what you read and know about Him? nobody bothers about facts about God.. He did this to who and who, He did that to who and who.. Benny Hinn talks about undeniable miracles, it is time we have undeniable testimony for an undeniable God in our lives.. i really hope the next time somebody ask me that qn again i will make his jaws drop..

so far this post got nothing to do with my title right? so i am gonna make it link.. thank God for long wkends.. booking in tonight.. and lotsa tests next wk! bye..

sick

2008-12-01T17:15:00.002+08:00

my head hurts and my temp is running high.. on mc for today but going to book in soon.. got totally no motivation to do anything bcoz my head just hurts so much once i think harder or exert force..

NEW TOY!

2008-11-22T11:05:00.003+08:00

I GOT A NEW TOY!

AND IT IS HUGE!!!

i thank God that i let Him take control and things didnt go as bad as i thought it would be.. haha thank my listening ear on sunday night too.. i am just happy to be in this course bcoz i know it would be good for me in future.. changes are coming my way and i pray for tenacity and stamina to run this 5 months.. :)

100th

2008-11-16T11:03:00.003+08:00

this is the 100th post.. haha i know it is supposed to be celebration but i just need to say this.. my blog tells me that the top 2 googled names that lead to my blog are as below:

1) Jill McCloghry

2) Sheila Jang

haha why i am saying this again man? just 2 days back i was just telling Sheila about this happening and today when i go back to my blog again *WAHH* that person(guy i suppose) googled her again! haha come on if u wanna talk to her then just go and talk to her.. dont stalk people! hahahaha! in case you dont know who is Jill McCloghry, she is a song leader in Hillsongs. so Sheila, u are in the same level of popularity with a Hillsongs song leader and i tink that tells something about u! anyway all the best for ur exams Jang!

oh ya.. i am like in a crossroad now.. i dunno which is more worthed it.. a dream or a conference that can change my dreams.. does it matter which department i go if i will only stay 4 years? can this conference make an impact for more than 4 years? haiz.. God speak to me somehow please...

alright time for cg.. i am going guitar practise so bye bye.. i really hope God will speak later.. doesnt feel good to be standing on the crossroad..

the best

2008-11-15T00:44:00.000+08:00

the good is the enemy of the best.. sometimes u just know it when it is not the best, just the good.. gut feelings nv go wrong.. maybe i watch too much Heroes, or i do really have superpowers.. but i will wait for the best.. only a matter of time..

haha not related but fibi is so cute.. she keep wanting to get on my lap when i am watching Heroes and typing this.. and now after i put her down she is waiting for me to pick her up again.. stupid dog.. haha..

279

2008-11-14T11:46:00.001+08:00

and it all end at 279..

:(

2008-11-12T21:23:00.003+08:00

omg.. how sad can a song get.. this is a super sad song but i have no idea why i kept listening to it.. and i wonder where those negativity come from sometimes.. haiz..

沉默玩具
变成一个影
隐藏了自己
爱情困难呼吸
我是沉默玩具
执着对你无限期
模糊我自己
不愿升上白旗
输了你的游戏

你和他对街拥抱我看到
为什麽爱上你的人是我
为什麽一厢情愿的人会难过
为什麽对你舍不得总是我
爱上你需要那真情意
收在日记里

寂寞天天不休息
让甜蜜全也忘记
幸福不再美丽
可是我会在意
为什麽对你舍不得总是我
还是你需要那真情意

真爱你的人会难过
为什麽对你舍不得总是我
还是你需要那真情意
收在日记里

IF ONLY..

2008-11-12T18:02:00.003+08:00

oh i finish the KiteRunner and must say that it is really good.. like which book i read and i nv say it is good u all must be wondering.. i think of all the books Little Prince is not as good as i expected it to be.. the rest like Last Lecture, 5 People You Meet in Heaven, Tears of the Desert are all very good and KiteRunner is one of the best.. it really speak about the deep secrets of every single one of us.. skeleton in the closet we used to hear them say.. we all are sure to have some thorns in our lives that continues to haunt us everyday. be it something wrong that we did or something right we didn't do. it may not have anything to do with us even sometimes, we just saw someone doing some stuff that we will never forget for whole of our lives.. such events we experience or or witness constantly haunts us and come back to us in vivid memories and we always wake up from those nightmares thinking if not i had.. if only i had not...

if only......

i had one of those nightmares the other day.. was resting in bunk and i woke up in a rude shock.. shocked that i am dreaming about that thing.. ashamed that it still haunts me in a dream when i thought i have conquered that area of my life.. God i really hope i will move on and be victorious.. i had many of these "if only" in my life.. too many for me to handle sometimes.. but i am not defeated that easily i thank God.. i havent given up through the years.. and what cannot break you will only make you stronger i heard this phrase from somewhere.. people came and tell me about their "if only" last wk.. several different ones came and shared with me.. and i thank God that through experiences, people grow and you grow to be determined to live life without "if only" , without regrets..

i am starting to read Dreams From My Father by Mr President Barack Obama.. i hope it wont stir up emotions about me and my father.. i was just telling my friend that day that i really miss my dad.. hmm hope the book will be good.. stay tuned for my review on that book! till then see ya all..

phew

2008-11-12T17:59:00.003+08:00

AND IT NEARLY ENDED AT 270...... *phew*

let's hope things will get better from now...

THE NUMBERS

2008-11-10T20:07:00.003+08:00

241!!!

2008-11-07T21:36:00.003+08:00

i always loved this song.. i blogged about it before and the lyrics just pierce my heart like no other song.. there will be times i need a touch from God so much and i will always put on this song and the presence will just come.. this video is about the song leader of this song,Jill McCloghry, whose baby died one wk before the live recording, and she went on to sing for God despite her circumstances..

This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

And I will bring praise, I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice, I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

All of my life, In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow

i love the part in the bridge:

All of my life, In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

i hope i have the chance and the family of Auntie K have the opportunity to see this video.. be strong auntie K, i am praying for you i promise.. i speak healing into ur life.. pls get well soon..

and the magical number 200.. something to smile about on this emo day..

Congrats Obama!

2008-11-06T12:28:00.005+08:00

so now do ur job..

and i am supposed to send out this email that is computer generated from savedarfur.org but why not just put it here:

Hi,

Now that Barack Obama is our president-elect, there's a new hope for Darfur.

That's because Barack Obama has been a champion of Darfur in the Senate, and pledged "unstinting resolve" to stop the violence and protect the people of Darfur.

It's our job to make sure he keeps that promise. So I joined with thousands of others and sent a postcard to the next president, adding my voice to the call for Day One leadership on Darfur.

Will you join me and Be a Voice for Darfur?

It's easy to add your voice. Click here to send a postcard. Remind Barack Obama to stay true to his word.

If everyone from all backgrounds speak together for one cause, then President-elect Obama will listen.

Thank you for your support.

anyway isnt it an ordeal to wait and live in uncertainty.. no wonder patience is a virtue..

Obama Victory Speech

2008-11-05T14:35:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!!

this is not linked but the number is 160 now.. hahahah..

life is precious

2008-11-04T23:09:00.003+08:00

yes life is precious.. i heard a piece of news from mummy and i am so so so upset.. i hope u will be alright auntie K.. i will keep u in prayers.. reading Kite Runner sets my mind running again.. humans are like that.. fight and fight then get what you wan and when you get it u regret fighting in the first place.. when u gain something, it just means someone else lost it or that thing u gain has replaced something else in u.. i rmb blogging this before:

It is because the human spirit knows, deep down, that all lives intersect. That death does not just take someone, it misses someone else, and in the small distance of being taken and being missed, lives are changed.

indeed when you get something, something else in u is lost.. it is an exchange, it is how the world is kept in balance.. so i what you are fighting for worth it? it is worth what you are going to lose as a result of gaining that? think before u commit to fight.. if it is, then fight with all you have, if not, cherish what you already have..

on a lighter note, i am happy there is something new to expect everyday now.. the number is 137... and that's for now! :)

i'll keep on fighting

2008-10-31T23:59:00.002+08:00

i realized it is this kind of things people say about me that keeps me fighting.. and afterall, i am really a zero without God..

The Thief

2008-10-29T22:50:00.004+08:00

this nice song i discovered online by Brooke Fraser... the Thief(not tiff)!! haha..

The Original Version by Brooke Fraser

and i found this cover by Minjonet.. lovely!

THE THIEF
Your eyes are full,
full of the future of us
The air changes as you look across
at me in that wondering way

It is as if
I knew you before we spoke
Do our hearts know something we don't?
Conspiring, converging
without giving us any say

You sing me to sleep,
talk down my walls
Look through my windows as I wait
You could be the thief
I give the key to

You're ruining me
with secrets and gestures and looks
With sonnets and second-hand books
Playing the chords in me
nobody knew how to play

You sing me to sleep,
talk down my walls
Look through my windows as I wait
You could be the thief
I give the key to

It fits in your hand like the water in rain
It unlocks our two different selves
and shows we are the same
Rather than wait 'til I
put me out for the taking
You're breaking
You're breaking into my heart
and I'm letting you

Your eyes are full,
full of the future of us

here it comes!

2008-10-28T15:00:00.048+08:00

ok finally i got myself to sit down and start posting the pictures.. there are still alot of more controversial and interesting pictures but i cannot post here bcoz i am on a exercise trip after all.. if u wanna see just come look for me online and i will show u.. oh ya gotta explain why there is not going to be pictures of ximending.. normally u go taipei sure go ximending one.. normally la.. and i am a very normal person so normally i will go but the previous president mr chen had to abnormally organize a demonstration rally at ximending and my company being my company banned us from going ximending so in the end i stayed 50m from ximending and i nv go ximending.. haha.. enjoy the pictures...

first day in Changi Airport..
we look so excited.. unaware of the shit we are going to do there..
these accompanied me through my darkest days over there..
all food!! woo!!

all food in my kitbag!!
第四栋
the legendary Admin Support!
drivers, medic, signallers..
admin support with uncle chua..
what happens when they issue us so much condoms??
i love condoms!!
犯贱look!
he took more than one pack..
bye my favourite camp dog..
finally the day we have been waiting for..
R&R lo!!
haha look at the monkey's left hand..
first stop.. 六福村amusement park..
eugene!
we are supposed to be like prisoners.. but ended up like chimps..
this thing goes up and turn around.. i cant take due to my chronic ear fluid imbalance.. haiz..
i see ang and eugene..
i will die up there really..
how about this???
no kick to them..
cannot tahan le.. i muz try some rides..
i am not scared!!
i am really not scared........... ok i am scared...
then we queued up for hell..
the car goes up about 8 storeys.. then....
vrooms it comes down in less than a sec and i almost lost both my balls..
we didnt get to try this.. queue too long..
TIGERS! There is a mini zoo in the amusement park..
this fella sneezed on me..

he just love doing this so i gotta do it for him again..
it was supposed to be 好料。。。。。。。。
we sang ktv on the coach and i had a revelation.. all cadets cant sing!
there is this ferris wheel shopping centre.. we were actually going to 九份 but it was raining heavily so we change our destination to this shopping centre.. but honestly.. it suck..
outside ferris wheel shopping centre
he says: finally a decent room to slp in..
MRT single trip tickets..
my favourite in the whole trip.. 士林夜市
臭豆腐 is not 臭 at all!!
his favourite 臭豆腐
猪血汤

WAH MY O-AR-JIAN IS HERE!!
ATTACK!!

this is something something 饼.. i forgot the name..
all mine!! see the police triangular top.. it is for Fibi and i am so going to make her wear that to take picture one day.. now i got a 警犬
now choose ur side!
taipei's citylink mall
this is how they honor the ladies..
they queue outside Sogo before it opens and the staff are there early in the morning to entertain the people in the queue.. when it opens, the staff bowed and greeted everyone who comes into the mall.. best customer service.. singapore will nv have this..
mine..
Ang's
Sogo.. which became there demonstration venue later.. we witness it and took photos and even videoed but too sensitive to post here..
oh ken came to meet us even though he just quarrelled with his gf.. and the gf came shoftly after that.. hopefully everything goes well..
our last meal together..
my favourite ROC driver..
i miss ken.. i hope the couple will patch up or something..
we're off to see Taipei 101..
exterior of Taipei 101..
zhifa dont look very happy here.. haha..
highest we could go is 89F.. 91F is the outdoor viewing gallery which is only opened on special occasions..
each costed NT400 which is around S$20.. worthed it?
super nice..

he says he look SUPER GOOD in this outfit.. judge for yourself.. haha..
zhifa
weibin

cannot see anything leh..
wrong direction la of course cannot see!
coming up is nv a waste of money if you get to see all these..

we're at 380 m above sea lvl..

the real damper.. weighing 550 TONNES!
the black damper
the red damper
and the yellow one.. i tink i missed out one color bcoz there is supposed to be 4 dampers characters.. shit!

everybody shopped at Esprit because the salegirl that attended to us is so cute.. my type!! haha.. but too bad so sad..
Subway! we should have some healthy food after all the junk food in the last 3 wks..
101 at night..
Bye Taipei 101!
Dogs are allowed in their airport..
us with Cpt Nice Guy.. whom i found out that he is also from CHC.. no wonder he is so nice.. haha..
us with Cpt Chiong Shua aka Mr AMK!
admin support with ammo sir..the bball heros posing with 三分小王子！haha!
all ORD personnels pls collect your kena-beated-up-by-regulars coupons to redeem your bashing..
zhifa with his childhood hero..
hello kitty concept phone booths..
3D Hello Kitty life sized figurine..
i posed with anything 3D..hahahaha.. i have been trying to imitate this in taiwan..
here's admin support staff, plus medic, plus drivers, plus chef.. in short u call us ALL OF THE REST!
i found this prayer room in Taiwan Airport..
you can conduct your mini service here just in case you are too worried about the flight..
bibles provided.. this is thoughtful!
taken on the plane!
from the other side~
being the King of Good Analogy and Wisdom, i automatically bought another 3 books to add to my collection of inspirational books when i come back.. the deal is irressistable when i got like 45% Borders discount coupon!! WOO!! all hail the new king!!

all done!! i spent like more than two hours uploading these.. super tiring.. now i know why people dont like to upload pictures.. enjoy!! anyway.. the esprit salesgirl is realli realli cute.. haiz...

lazy

2008-10-27T20:06:00.002+08:00

ya i am supposed to be like posting pictures, telling stories about the trip but aiya i am so so lazy.. i need to replenish the slp lack that i accumulated in the trip so i am going to do all the posting and blogging in the next available time when i dont feel lazy..

and something else to someone else.. i wanna say thank you too.. :)

HOME!!

2008-10-26T13:47:00.000+08:00

i can only say home is still the best!!

i am glad..

2008-10-22T18:03:00.003+08:00

somehow i feel glad that i made the right choice few months back,, sometimes we may have done something wrong and it may have been a totally stupid and unwise decision to do that but there is always something good out of every single situation.. Randy Pausch used to say this.. if you wait long enough, people will surprise and impress you and i say that if you search hard enough, you will find the good out of every situation and i will never regret clinging on.. i could nv imagine what my life would have been or if i would even still have a life to talk about if i did what my emotions told me to do but thank God there is always a will stronger than the emotions and and i am so glad that the pulling force of that will was much stronger than the pushing force of my emotions at that time.. so now i await what God has prepared for me who love Him and me who is called according to His will.. :)

I MISS SINGAPORE!!

2008-10-17T19:02:00.004+08:00

I MISS SINGAPORE AND FIBI...

i miss fibi so much that i told my friends that i am treating the camp dog like fibi and i might wake up in the middle of the night to bath the dirty camp dog.. haiz..

Let's talk about Equality

2008-10-15T18:56:00.004+08:00

this trip and the Tears of the Desert book got me thinking about equality this few days, the book because the fight for equality is the main message and the trip because i see alot of that in the people i work with in this trip.. and since i am on sentry for so long hours, i "meditate" alot on the topic

In Darfur, people fight for their basic human rights and it seems that those basic rights are not equal among different race and skin color. In Rwanda, same things happen and we in this fortunate country could only sigh and mourn about their fate, secretly thanking God that none of that happened in our happy little island. But look deeper and think harder, inequality is everywhere even here in the happy little island..

this work trip made me realize that in our based-on-justice-and-equality happy little island that is built on everyone's effort regardless-of-race-language-and-religon, some things are just masked and well packaged that we cannot even talk about it without risking getting sued.. constantly, we are seeing the wrong people being put into the wrong place just because they have the right links or the right piece of paper, or something even surname.. haha.. the more experienced people or more adequate workers are to remain in the same post because they do not carry the required piece of paper to suit the company's image in that certain position. high profile roles are given to future undergrads just because of the fact that they are going to be in a university in future.. people are not being allowed into more restricted places because they just happened to be the same skin color as the people who has a threat to us.. this is gross and i dont like it.. it is legalized inequality masked and candy-wrapped and it is obviously deception.

my friend tell me to suck thumb and flow with the trend but i am not going to do that.. if there is something i can do about it i will man.. aint gonna sit by and do nothing.. if Paul Rusesabagina did something in Rwanda, Halima Bashir did something in Darfur, then why not me.. but the thing is i gotta get influential first before people start listening to me. and the first step to being influential, i gotta get into a uni and get a degree.. what an irony and this sucks..

i need thr R&R badly..

2008-10-12T19:45:00.005+08:00

everyday here is either shitwork(sai gang), gym, more sai gang, calling wai mai, even more sai gang, and even even more sai gang.. life without a purpose sucks.. i need a life here.. haha.. who goes on a overseas trip with free travel, accomodation and food and still complain so much.. i am such an ass.. haiz.. i need R&R badly.. my taiwan army friends are going to bring me shopping.. got one look super funny one.. look like Nono.. anybody got anything wanna buy just sms me la.. i will be free to reply most likely..

btw i continued my quest to be the King of Good Analogies and added to my wisdom by reading this book called Tears of the Desert. It is about the determination of a lady to survive and fight for her rights in the midst of a war and unfairness in society because of color and race. super good book again.. it is kind of ex but i nv regretted buying because it made me realize how good singapore is.. especially when i am reading it in a foreign land.. haha.. i miss singapore..

btw btw, i've been having weird dreams.. really weird.. like sometimes friends will just meet me on the street and smile like normal and the dream will always evolve into something unpleasant and i will wake up with a sour feeling.. happened like 3-4 times since i come to Taiwan already and i reckon that i miss singapore and the people too much..

there is some people i must meet:

GUO YUTING!(top of the list so pls feel honoured otherwise i will shift u down)

jianwei and zhiyu and bernard(time to share those enlistment stories, and OCT JW sure got alot of stuff to share also one)

jocelin(long overdue meeting.. when issit going to happen????)

the whole E341 and N398(i am going to go back on a sunday so i tink i will be going CGM so this meeting shouldnt be a problem)

so if ur name is found on the list pls like meet me can? like pls.. or i will start having weird dreams again.. bye all!

Welcome to Taiwan

2008-10-10T20:23:00.000+08:00

i heard the captain saying welcome to taiwan with my half opened eyes at abot 0630 hrs and my nightmare begins.. the internet here is fast enough to allow me to blog all these..................................................before i gotta log out.. bye!!

off to taiwan~

2008-10-06T17:51:00.003+08:00

bye bye all.. in few hours time i am off to Taiwan.. feeling excited and yet reluctant to go because after what happen i just feel that i should stay back and help out.. but nvm.. the trip is already set so people in singapore, pls take care..

i finished reading the Five People You Meet in Heaven and i am so amazed by how good Mitch Albom is.. so i cant control myself and went to buy For One More Day! haha.. here it is:

great book and think i can finish on the plane later.. haha.. till we meet again, bye folks!

Take Care Bro...

2008-10-05T20:32:00.002+08:00

"we dont beat the Grimreaper by living longer, we beat the Reaper by living well, and living fully. For the Reaper will come for all of us, the question is what do we do between the time we're born and the time he shows up"
Randy Pausch

i watched this in office..

2008-10-03T23:03:00.002+08:00

more wise words from the King of Good Analogies

2008-10-03T22:23:00.003+08:00

so the quest for more wisdom continues and the King of Good Analogies is here to intro another book, this time not by Randy Pausch because he has already moved on and dont tink he can write anymore books but now by Mitch Albom and it is called The Five People You Meet in Heaven:

no it is not what you are thinking this is not a christian book because i have come to realized that balance is the key to success and my success as the king of good analogies and my quest to wisdom do not just come by reading christian books and yes they are good but i always gotta strike a balance. and the truth is, not every christian book is a good book and not every good book is a christian book.. this book is good man.. i dunno if it is a new or old book but i just pick it up at Borders and i got glued to it.. let's see some quotes from the book..

the scene was a certain Blue man's funeral and he said this:

Look at those mourners. Some did not even know me well, yet they came. Why? Did you ever wonder? Why people gather when others die? Why people feel they should?

It is because the human spirit knows, deep down, that all lives intersect. That death does not just take someone, it misses someone else, and in the small distance of being taken and being missed, lives are changed.

wah when i read this part i am like *stunned* this is so true, so true that it hits me so hard and i just gotta stop reading and think about everything.. phew.. great bk.. go get it.. $15(incl GST) is cheap for a change of concept about life..

self evaluation

2008-10-01T19:47:00.002+08:00

a recent thorough self evaluation make me understand and open my eyes to how low the rating i could be standing right now and though alot of factors are not up to me to decide but i still see that there are alot of things that i can make a difference in. we make not have a say over everything that happens in our lives but it does makes alot of difference if we change what we can change instead of whining and worrying about what cant be changed. i think alot always, especially when i am alone.. actually i love to think so i took today this holiday to be alone and relax and just do what i wanna do.. felt good and refreshing and decided to change the way i deal with a number of things..

as the king of good analogies, i decided to end off the Dave's Thinking Day with this quote from of course Randy Pausch:

"we cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand."

and another by Rev Dr AR Bernard"

"insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a difference set of results."

so i am expecting changes in my life...

2008-09-28T20:21:00.001+08:00

你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒, 我会给你怀抱..

就算整个世界被寂寞绑票, 我也不会奔跑..

SMELLY!!

2008-09-26T22:23:00.003+08:00

i got endurance training today.. and after that technical handling for SAR21 and i end work early and i came back and i went jog from Bedok North to Expo then down Changi then back to Bedok and i feel so good in the lift until something smells weird.. and it is the brown something on my left shoe so i thought it is like small piece of grass or weed of something so i naturally used the heel of my right shoe to try to brush it off and the brown something so naturally got transferred to heel of my right shoe so i got so irritated and i stomp my right heel on the lift floor and it create a small patch of brown something on the lift floor so i realized the brown something was just some dog shit.. smell like it was freshly made.. omg.. on my fav nike jogging shoe.. thanks doggie..

pls.. if ur dog shit, then pick it up with a tissue or something then throw into the bin.. or drain.. or somewhere where nobody will step on.. where nobody with nice nike jogging shoes will step on.. where nobody who had a rather good day with nice nike jogging shoes will step on.. where nobody who jogged and was satisfied and had a rather good day with nice nike jogging shoes will step on.. u dog owners understand me??

anyway.. i hope it wasnt Fibi who shitted that pile.. bcoz

CURSED IS THE DOG OWNER WHOSE DOG SHIT AND NEVER CLEAR AND DAVID STEPPED WITH HIS NICE NIKE JOGGING SHOES!!!

btw.. fibi is my dog and i always make it a point to pick up her poo.. maybe it was my sister..

king of analogies..

2008-09-21T19:53:00.002+08:00

all hail the new king of analogies David Chen!!!

i bet the car-and-parking-lots analogy was the best of the century..
that i must share here:

Brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something

Randy Pausch

yes it is still randy pausch.. and i am so going to conquer this brick wall in front of me.. brick wall made of a certain precious stone haha..

dont understand what i am saying? haha.. nvm i dont tink i can fully comprehend too.. sunday blues..

on the side note.. i tink i am closing this blog and moving to somewhere else..

2008-09-14T18:26:00.002+08:00

i just saw something in my friend's blog that kind of affected me.. sometimes somethings happen in our life and result in a series of chain reactions which make it impossible for u to live the life that you once lived. things we say and do really make or break people's lives.. so here i am to say sorry to all i have hurted through words and actions.. sorry world.. i tink i had been a real crude man..

i like something Randy Pausch said this The Last Lecture:

Experience is what you get when you didnt get what you wanted

go get this book man.. it makes me think alot..

Brooke Fraiser is damn good..

2008-09-05T23:31:00.002+08:00

This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

And I will bring praise, I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice, I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

All of my life, In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow

it's about faith..

2008-08-31T03:33:00.001+08:00

i gotta try to convince myself that sometimes u are just liddat.. patience dave..

小情歌

2008-08-24T11:55:00.002+08:00

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着
你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡

nice

2008-08-22T20:38:00.002+08:00

ALWAYS BE MY BABY
We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be a part of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby

I WANT THIS SONG!

2008-08-19T21:47:00.000+08:00

old song but i dont have.. can somebody send me?

KPE

2008-08-17T22:36:00.002+08:00

Join me at KPE.

ERP and Hitler

2008-08-17T19:19:00.001+08:00

The More I Seek You

2008-08-03T09:31:00.002+08:00

The more i seek you,
the more i find you
The more i find you, the more I love you

I wanna sit at your feet
drink from the cup in your hand.
Lay back against you and breath, here your heart beat
This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming

Kari Jobe is so so so good.. and pretty.. haha..

closest encounter with death..

2008-07-27T11:25:00.004+08:00

this is my closest encounter with death.. two incidents in one day both in tekong.. one on my friend one on my whole group.. i shared this so many times already so i am not going to type here again.. but out of it there is only one thing i wanna say..

THANK GOD I AM STILL ALIVE!!

my promise..

2008-07-20T18:31:00.001+08:00

even when the mountains tremble and a thousand fall, i will stand with You, my Jesus take my all..

hello tekong

2008-07-20T08:02:00.003+08:00

back from some forest near NTU from field camp.. and back to Tekong for exercise Grand Slam next wk.. i miss that place actually.. all the memories of BMT.. Sgt terence, LT Na, Sgt huang, Sgt Imran, Sgt Ikay.. really hope can bump into them somewhere on the island.. after grandslam will be ippt then end this course already.. time flies.. wonder what will come next for me.. busy busy wk.. not much time to blog.. bye..

beautiful song

2008-07-06T09:55:00.002+08:00

幸福的距离
刘耕宏
窗外开始下起毛毛雨
云遮住了星星
夜深了还没有睡意
翻来覆去地想你
时钟嘀嗒嘀嗒的声音
像在说我爱你
转过两点三点到六点
恨不得快点见到你

幸福的距离
就算万公里
在你眼里有我想要的勇气
从南极飞到北极
南京到北京
你的笑胜过那些美景
我们勾勾手就一言为定
我会傻傻地好好地爱你
你的名加我的姓
永远在一起
拥抱多过千言万语

good svc

2008-06-29T12:06:00.001+08:00

svc was so good.. just in time for me.. thank you God..

Kelong pictures

2008-06-28T09:32:00.005+08:00

lost..

2008-06-22T21:16:00.001+08:00

honestly i have not felt so lost in my entire life before..

shoulders aching with responsibilities far beyond what i should bear..

so tired..

AWOL

2008-06-22T12:55:00.003+08:00

What if i go AWOL tmr??? what if i AWOL from life?? haha.. i am having stupid ideas now!! but ideas only la.. i will never have the guts to do it.. back to packing for tmr's reporting to School of Infantry Specialist when i am not going to be an infantry specialist after all.. how many times muz i tell you that i am an ARMOUR SPECIALIST?!?!?!?!? RARR... but.. suck thumb go back to packing.. whatever i say still must report...

POP lo 2!!!

2008-06-20T09:52:00.007+08:00

Presenting to you POP pictures from PTE QJ CHEN

PTE QJ CHEN with 3SG HUANG

Civillian Salman in the sky as a lesson to all not to go around shouting "ORD lo" when people just POP only...

PTE QJ CHEN with Cougar Platoon 4 Section 3

Section 3 with our PC, 2LT Na Kok Yong Baldie

PTE QJ CHEN with the only female recruit in Cougar company.. he calls me bro-in-law and he is going to intro me his sis!! woohoo!!

SPOT PTE QJ CHEN AND GET A PRIZE OF YOUR CHOICE AT HERE

Cougar Platoon 4

anyway.. i am not converted to OCT CHEN.. die die muz go SISPEC.. this is sian.. bye...

POP lo!!

2008-06-13T16:31:00.002+08:00

POP lo!!!

grad day was a success despite the rain.. i am now PTE David.. haha.. i was told that i got very good results and may go OCS instead of SISPEC.. now it is all up to the approval of the "upstairs" people.. let's hope that they will allow me to convert my contract and i can become OCT David!! haha..

alot of things have been happening.. both in family and in cg.. people who are close will know so i dont plan to write here.. people who tink they are close to me and dunno may approach me online in msn @ david_haha@hotmail.com.. come to tink of it.. if u are in the process of adding me now, it means u may not be close to me after all!! haha.. i am talking rubbish..

although they may not see this but i tink i wanna thank God for these good friends:

yong quan my other buddy
ismail the weird melayu
clarence the biscuit boy
wilson the steel teeth
erny the big dick
spencer the "once a chao geng always a chao geng"
andy the act innocent
ming de the silent killer
yan ren the bathing ape
wei bin the groove boy
si wei the gay
jeevanjeet the hairy monster
you dian my shitting alarm clock
dennis the amigo
SGT terence the thunderflash
SGT huang the pretend to be angry
SGT imran the half left down
SGT ikay the stand by bed, stand by cupboard, stand by everything
2LT na the balding head
and many more

of course of people like jason and ben, life is more interesting.. not forgetting the one who screams "jia lo di lo"(eat bread lo) every morning.. all these irritating people make our lives in BMTC more interesting.. went through hell with all these good and bad friends.. God knows what my next unit will be like.. but what i know is i enjoy BMTC and i will never forget what i went through in tekong..

there is a poster in tekong ferry terminal that u will see when u book in.. it is a soldier with his girlfriend looking sad.. and it says..

It is not what you left behind.. it is what you will gain in days ahead..

how true.. all the best jian wei in BMTC..

nice!

2008-06-06T21:02:00.002+08:00

God is good!

2008-05-25T18:34:00.001+08:00

CGM(s) was tiringly good!! God is so good..

I PASSED MY IPPT!!

2008-05-24T23:57:00.001+08:00

I FINALLY PASSED MY IPPT!!

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY I AM!!

WOO!!!!!

long weekend

2008-05-19T15:47:00.002+08:00

this wk had a long weekend by i still very lazy to update my blog.. what happen was i:

meet up with cherish and had a good chat.. very fruitful and fulfilling bcoz very long nv see her already..
meet up angel jw zy for lunch before book in.. as good as fruitful also.. would be better if there was kbox's klunch.. haha.. looking forward to market 85 next wk with JT around!!
meet up the usual group of clique for mahjong and talking sessions.. found out alot of things.. BURDENED!!
went to army shop to top up some stuff..
went shopping at Levis, got cheated by the pretty salesgirl to get the membership for 50 bucks when i dont patronize much there!! hahaha.. single man's woe!

what's happening this coming wk:

IPPT final test on wed
grad at TP at wed
16km route march on thurs
Man U vs Chelsea Champion's league final on thurs
friday bookout plus ktv(hopefully it comes to past!)

what i feel like doing most:

meet jocelin tan keat ying(you better get the hint!!)
hopefully play a part in solving the cg burden issues(but i am always not around.. saddening)
pass my IPPT!!
watch Champion's league finals!!(get a day off after attending my grad)
buy my digicam!!!(in time for POP day)
go overseas for a break after POP!!(sentosa/ubin counted also)

alright going to do some packing.. bye everyone.. pls fulfill my wishes God!!

WHERE WERE MY JAWS???

2008-05-11T16:00:00.003+08:00

i saw this photo in angel's blog of me when me angel JW ZY and JT ate at the fine dining place in TP.. dunno called what la.. Top Table is it? that photo was taken during MPSIP time.. OMG i got a shock of my life.. where were my jaws?? haha.. double chin rocks!! so i purposely wore the same tee today and took a photo in that tee.. here's presenting to you before and after NS!!

BEFORE NS!!

AFTER 8 WKS IN NS!

You're all i got left..

2008-05-04T11:57:00.003+08:00

something which i anticipated for long and yet hope it will nv come has happened.. sometimes a simple prayer you make to God will bring the "simple" test of faith into your life.. "simple" test like this are designed to test if you are worthy of what you prayed for.. but it just happens too quick for me to prepare myself.. (Andy.. if u are reading this.. remember what we discussed about on the way from ktv to jalan kayu on CNY? the worst thing that can ever happened and we both have the common worry?? that thing happened... but i doubt andy reads this.. )

i am upset.. nobody will be not.. but i am standing firm.. "it doesnt matter anymore" i keep telling myself.. i remembered in sheila's recently post there is something that says:

He's all I've got left

nobody will really understand what this sentence means until u are put in such a situation.. where nothing else matters, but oni Jesus do..

Jesus.. You're all i got left

HAPPENING WEEK!!

2008-05-01T11:28:00.002+08:00

THIS MUST BE THE MOST HAPPENING WEEK OF MY LIFE!!!

no wonder they say you will remember field camp for your whole life and it will become your story to tell your kids and your kids' kids..

alot happened but there is a limit of how much i can share because i need to have "loyalty to country" and protect the nation's image so come and ask me and i will see if i wanna tell you.. haha..

but i got my first ghost encounter in my life in bunk.. tink i dont wanna write much here also.. so ask me and i will see if i wanna tell you..

was a tiring wk but i am glad God was there when i cried out to Him.. there were times which i wanted to give up going on.. shoulders aching and back nearly breaking but i hang on bcoz i know why i am there for and the calling and purpose God has placed in my life.. this is only the beginning and if i give up i will not be able to reach where He has destined me to be.. btw.. i miss church.. and cgm.. really alot..

field camp also made me lose alot of weight.. so from enlistment under now i have lost 6 kg and still counting.. welcome to the world most effective weight lost centre.. the army! hahaha.. i shall post my photos this wk since i got time.. LONG WEEKEND ROCKS!!

FIELD CAMP!!

2008-04-20T08:00:00.002+08:00

hi everyone i am back again!! oni for 24 hours this time.. kind of tired after this wk series of shiong activities in peparation for field camp nxt wk.. i am going to book in tonight and i will not book out until next next wed which is like 30 apr.. 10 days in camp and of which 6 days outfield.. but after the 30th i will be having 4 days break so pls ask me out!! maybe i'll come running to ask u all out also.. haha..

so what happened this wk? i had live shooting which i am so shocked by the impact and sound created by a live bullet then i was stunned on the spot after the first shot.. even though i was wearing ear plug but the noise and impact was just too overwhelming.. but i pass that so technically 1/3 of my BMT is completed.. i had live grenade training also and tmr i am going to have the real live grenade lesson.. hopefully everything goes right and my grenade can explode away from me peacefully!! i hope stickman dont blow me up.. i am going to have field camp next wk so this wk have been having individual field craft training which means i go to the jungle and try to learn how to survive.. all those was tiring but still fun.. u come to a point whereby u dont care about dirt and u just go all the way..

so next wk pls pray for me.. field camp will be tiring man but good thing is u sure lose weight.. talking about losing weight as charis has requested i will put up my botak pic and and do a before enlistment and after enlistment thing.. hopefully can get some pic by today bcoz my stupid cam phone is down.. maybe at next pay i should get a digi cam?? haha.. yup.. i need all your prayers.. pray that i will survive field camp, pray for favor among people in camp, pray that i will not be haunted by ghost(it happened in other bunks already), pray for time pass quickly when i am in the jungle..

other than that i still love army.. it is the 5th wk already and there are people still not adjusted yet.. there is this guy who was on mc and excused from activities all the way from mid of wk 1 till now.. amazing.. i tink he is going to be charged soon.. even if he wakes up now, i tink it is very difficult for him to perform.. firstly, he is not motivated and how can u get motivated in wk 6 when u are not from wk 1-5.. secondly, he is not fit compared to us.. we went through all the hell training when he was slping in his bunk using his hp or slacking around washing toilets.. it is very difficult to catch up already now.. thirdly.. he is being "marked" by people already.. so no matter how hard u try, there is just a limit of how well people tink of u.. too bad.. and too "badder" for me..... HE IS MY BUDDY......

hahaha.. God bless me and see you all in 10 days time!!

SICK!!

2008-04-12T22:55:00.002+08:00

ARGH i feel so bad.. so sick.. so many people is down in my platoon.. cough and fever epidemic.. everyone's coughing.. i seen doc and didnt get mc bcoz coming mon got high key event.. live shooting.. if i miss this i will join other company to shoot.. not very good.. but doc visit was ex.. 53 bucks for 6 kinds of medicine.. eh doc.. u tink regular very rich issit?? haha..

met sheila up for lunch today.. sushi tei good leh.. high standard food.. and i saw the YK zone legendary rich member's house at holland V.. OMG!! i am dumbfounded!! house so big for what.. i told sheila to remember how to get to holland V bcoz next time she will need to go there to visit me bcoz i am going to aim to stay at that rich man estate..

next wk will be important wk.. live shooting plus ippt 2nd test.. pray for me pls!! other than that.. i am still enjoying army!!

I'M BACK!!

2008-03-29T08:11:00.002+08:00

HI EVERYONE.. I'M BACK!!

this wk was abit more shiong than last.. but it is still manageable.. physically it is more demanding and i am glad it is.. with all the hints the commanders are dropping i tink i know what next few wks will be like.. tough times ahead so i covet all your prayers..

being in army brought me closer to God.. not trying to be over-spiritual here bcoz i dont really pray alot there.. not enough personal time to do it.. my bunk mates are a load of crazy fools so we dont go to one corner and do our own things kind.. but i do speak to God.. when i am tired.. when we were to hold in the "down" position of push up and stay still there.. when my strength wear out i will shout out to Him.. when i am tired of shouting during route marches.. God was there with me all the while..

pls keep praying that i will keep staying positive.. i hate whiners.. like yuting said.. i hate these people who keep on complaining about food, weather, people, blar blar.. aiya just get used to it and chiong as a platoon la..

ok got alot of things to do today.. go bank go beach road go town go church.. i better go jogging first.. bye!! see you all next wk!!

I LOVE ARMY!!

2008-03-21T09:18:00.002+08:00

Army is a very fun place.. cant blog much about what i do there otherwise i will get charged.. haha.. but personally i enjoy the life there.. disciplined life and good physical training.. i just booked out for good friday and i am going back tonight again.. yesterday night met shan and the group.. went out for dinner with family.. now i realize how precious weekends are.. i really hope next wk will have more time to go church and dont need to rush here rush there..

next wk real training will start already.. honeymoon period over and we are ready to go full gear.. kind of look forward to it.. i wanna lose weight and get tanned!! haha..

home bed and home bathroom is the best!! home food is the best!! but Tekong is not that bad la.. and i need to bring more toilet paper.. 2 rolls in 8 days.. i tink i am a use-toilet-roll champion.. go field camp confirm die.. use leave and grass.. haha..

it is just warm up so nothing much happened this wk.. i will update more if i got time.. bye!!

I AM AN ARMY BOY!!

2008-03-13T00:39:00.002+08:00

8 hours to enlistment.. let me blog everything here..

how do i feel?? Excited.. Nervous.. Insecure.. Dunno what to expect.. abit of everything here.. people say that when the 2 most insecure period of a man's life is after education before NS and after NS before work.. it is the time when guys are at their crossroad and they dunno what to expect.. people say that christians go in NS, they either get stronger or they leave church.. people say that NS is 黑暗 one.. people backstab each other there to rise up the ranks.. haiz.. tell you what.. i dont care about what people say.. it may be true yes.. i have seen friends come and go bcoz of army but i am more concerned about what God says..

HEAD AND NOT THE TAIL.. ABOVE AND NOT BENEATH.. BLESSED IN YOUR COMING IN, BLESSED IN YOUR GOING OUT.. CITY SET ON A HILL THAT CANNOT BE HIDDEN.. THAT'S ME!!

i covet all of your prayers.. pls remember me.. my dream is to cross over to OCS and be an officer.. pay may be lower but i reflects better.. i will work hard for it but i cant do it with my own strength.. i really need God for this period of my time..

oh really surprise by the cell group.. thank shan, hubert, jed, debbie, vivien, vanessa, tiffany(*not in order of impact or influence) haha.. muz add in the * bcoz later they jealous say why their name not in front.. i dunno why they always say i dont look surprise or i very difficult to surprise.. haha.. i nv expect them at all la! haha.. they say i always tink alot so very difficult to surprise.. realli meh.. u all can try again on my birthday one.. 6 april.. dont forget ar.. haha.. oh they made a oh-okok-haha cake for me.. inside joke.. but i am not oh-ok-haha at all.. what's their problem.. i am humorous la..

i really hope that i will have good buddy, good bunk mates, good platoon and good company inside.. i am going to work very hard this time.. i am talking nonsense already bcoz i am quite tired but i dont wanna slp bcoz i dont wanna waste my last night of freedom.. haha.. i go watch tv.. go in no SCV cable to watch le.. bye world.. hi tekong!!

I CANT SLEEP!!

2008-03-10T01:53:00.001+08:00

I CANT IMAGINE THIS HAPPENING TO ME.. 3 DAYS TO ENLISTMENT, 6 HOURS TO REPORTING TO THE SUNGEI GEDONG CAMP.. AND I CANT SLEEP.. SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!!

Forgive Yourself..

2008-03-07T13:16:00.002+08:00

Welcome to today's version of Today God Is First.. Today i read about forgiving myself.. i so much needed that.. my friend, i guess you would need it too.. dunno if u would read this.. but i hope if u do, you would ponder about what God has to say here.. :)

March 6

Forgiving Ourselves

1 John 1:9
If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.

The apostle Peter was one of three disciples who walked with Jesus closer than the other nine. He was the most enthusiastic and the one man who was willing to step into territories where others would not dare. He was the first to step out of the boat and walk on water. He wanted to protect Jesus at times when Jesus rebuked him for having a demon influence him. He cut off the ear of the guard who wanted to arrest Jesus in the garden. As Peter matured, the Holy Spirit harnessed his many extreme emotions.
The greatest trial for Peter was when he denied the Lord just before Jesus was crucified. Three times he denied knowing Jesus. Jesus predicted that the cock would crow after the third time just to reinforce the prophecy to Peter. Peter was crushed when he realized he had failed His Lord so badly.
The Lord forgave Peter for his denial. However, gaining forgiveness from Jesus was not the most difficult part for Peter. The hard part was forgiving himself. As we mature in the faith, we begin moving in victory after victory with our Lord. Then out of nowhere, an event happens that reveals our true sin nature, and we are confronted face to face with this reality. We cannot believe that we are capable of such sin. There is no good thing in us save the grace of Jesus Christ and His blood that cleanses us. When God looks at us, He looks at the blood of Christ that has covered our sin. He does not look at our sin once we confess it.
When we have difficulty forgiving ourselves, this is pride at its deepest level. We are making an assumption that we should never have sinned and that we are too mature to sin. This is a trap from the enemy of our souls. People who cannot forgive do not recognize from what they have been forgiven. That includes us.

你是我的眼

2008-03-07T01:39:00.003+08:00

there is a blind singer in Taiwan called 萧煌奇 that in my opinion is much better than our very own 陈伟联.. he doesn't look weird (when i told my mum this she say i am very very bad to 伟联) and he sings very well.. he wrote a song called 你是我的眼 and it made me tear when i heard him sing.. here's the video and lyrics!

你是我的眼
如果我能看得见
就能轻易的分辨白天黑夜
就能准确的在人群中牵住你的手

如果我能看得见
就能驾车带你到处遨游
就能惊喜的从背后给你一个拥抱

如果我能看得见
生命也许完全不同
可能我想要的我喜欢的我爱的
都不一样

眼前的黑不是黑
你说的白是什么白
人们说的天空蓝
是我记忆中那团白云背后的蓝天

我望向你的脸
却只能看见一片虚无
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘
忘了掀开

你是我的眼带我领略四季的变换
你是我的眼带我穿越拥挤的人潮
你是我的眼带我阅读浩瀚的书海
因为你是我的眼
让我看见这世界就在我眼前

when i went to read the lyrics, there was this line that broke me... really broke my heart..

是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘,忘了掀开

who are we to blame God for our circumstances.. let's learn to appreciate what is good in our lives and not focus on what is bad.. if a blind man like him could write such a good song and move on in life, what more we whom can see the beautiful things God has placed in this world.. in a show that he performed in, the host said this which i think is so so true..

我们比萧煌奇看到了更多，但是我们感受到比他少太多了。。

my friend, dont give up on yourself.. bcoz i havent given up on you, and God didnt even once think of giving up.. stand up and fight with God again.. i will never stop praying for you.. this i can promise...

Favourite!!

2008-03-06T01:29:00.003+08:00

蕭敬騰 is now my favourite singer... if you dont count 曹格! look at this!!

THIS IS THE BEST!!

a twist to the story..

2008-03-05T19:35:00.002+08:00

there might be a twist to the story.. seriously dunno what to expect.. God.. i dunno how to pray about this.. do whatever You want and i'll be happy about it...

i just made big black spects for my enlistment.. but will i need it so fast?? hahahaha.. DILEMMA!!

NEW WORLD RECORD!!

2008-03-05T02:11:00.003+08:00

I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF.. I BROKE THE NEW WORLD RECORD!!

THE NEW WORLD RECORD FOR JOGGING DONE BY ANYONE NAMED CHEN QINGJIE DAVID!!

I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF!

I HOPE MAN U WILL WIN TONIGHT AND PROGRESS TO LAST 8.. BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN WORKING VERY HARD JOGGING SO ROONEY, RONALDO, TEVEZ, ANDERSON.. U ALL BETTER WORK HARD!!

EQ is very important..

2008-02-29T01:08:00.005+08:00

the problem with a blog and being a christian is most of the time you dont/cant blog bad things.. what happen this afternoon happened when i am about to blog so i decided to blog my negative emotions anyway.. but i just went to pray and i hope everything will turn out good for the thing i am upset about..

another thing i discovered is EQ is very very important.. u may be the best student on earth having the best IQ but once u cant communicate u are equals to an idiot.. book knowledge can be acquired by locking yourself in the library and forcing yourself to absorb everything.. but interpersonal skills are not taught.. they are picked up by experience and interaction.. and if u are not humble enough to learn then u will never improve.. no wonder some people always get into trouble.

LOUSY EQ!!

i wrote tonnes about how this person i talked to last night on msn has such bad EQ but after my world record jog i decided not to post that tonne of stuff.. i better be good and edify..

LOUSY EQ!!

haha.. i am not going to be bothered with her anymore.. oops.. did i say she is a her.. and i talked to her on msn on 28 Feb thurs night?? oops.. did i say too much..

too bad................... anyway this EQ-less person i talk with has nothing to do with my negative emotions post previously.. she does not have the ability to make me blog such negative emotions.. why?? bcoz she has.........

LOUSY EQ!!

hahahahahahah...

:(

2008-02-28T16:53:00.003+08:00

i feel damn terrible now.. though my final poly exams are over.. feel damn bad..

Into A Spacious Place

2008-02-25T20:34:00.003+08:00

Today's version of Today God is First is good again.. God yearns to bring us into a spacious place.. a place without limits, without boundaries.. not for rest not to relax but to set us up to step out in faith.. today i went to my spacious place..

Sungei Gedong Camp at Lim Chu Kang

i set off from tamp at around 12pm and i found myself home at 5pm.. and the thing is i only spend half an hour there and the rest of the time was either waiting for bus, on the bus, waiting for train or on the train.. OMG!! i was thinking what did i sign myself into? a pool of deep shit..

but when i was there.. faith arise in my heart.. i got a strong and good feeling about everything minus the distance.. i am going to like it there, minus the distance. it is just as though in the TGIF for today, God put me in a Peter situation, to the edge of my boat and ask me, would u step out and try out walking in a different way..

YES GOD I WILL STEP OUT!!

February 25

God's Motives

2 Samuel 22:20
He brought me out into a spacious place; He rescued me because He delighted in me.

Questioning someone's motives for their activities can become an overriding response to those to whom we relate. Wrong motives can result in broken relationships, poor business decisions, and falling out of God's will. Sometimes we do not know the motive of another person. It is wrong for us to assume what their motive is until we have confidence that we know their intentions. When we respond or react prematurely, we become judge and jury over them.

God has a motive for every one of His children. His desire is to bring us into a spacious place. He wants us to go beyond our borders of safety and security so that we might experience life at a level that goes beyond ourselves. What do you think of when you think of a "spacious place"? No limitations? A large, grassy field? Open air? These are positive images. Sometimes these spacious places encourage us to step out in faith into areas where we've never ventured. Sometimes we need to be rescued by the Lord. When Peter walked on the water, God was inviting him to a spacious place. He went beyond the borders of his boat and ventured into a whole new world. He didn't have complete success in his venturing out, but it was a process that would lead him to the next victory in his faith walk with Jesus. Sometimes failure is what is needed in order to move us to the next level of faith with God. However, we must be willing to fail and let God rescue us.

The Lord delights in this process. His motive for His children is always love. It is always to bring us to a new level of trust and dependence on Him.

I WANNA BE A POLICE WHEN I GROW UP!!

2008-02-22T07:17:00.009+08:00

When i grow up.. i wanna be a policeman...

http//www.spf.gov.sg/career/so_intro.htm#top

做人难.. 做好人更难...

2008-02-20T01:59:00.002+08:00

Matthew 7:14
"Because NARROW is the gate and DIFFICULT is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it"

was pondering about this just now when i was jogging.. it is so tough to walk in the path of righteousness.. no wonder the bible warns us that it is going to be narrow and difficult.. but everything is difficult until u find joy in it.. loving is a choice so loving God is a choice.. when u love, u do crazy things and nothing is impossible.. i remember in Jurong west days.. things were so simple.. love coming to church.. love taking train from tamp to boon lay.. love going overnight prayer meeting and cell group.. love serving.. love God.. knowledge and information has two faces.. one side makes people wise and effective.. another makes things complicated.. maybe that is why God ask Adam not to eat of the Tree of KNOWLEDGE of good and evil.. perhaps it was to protect Adam because he knows that when we know too much it might do us even more harm.. similarly when u know too much in church u become arrogant and complacent.. u think u have been there done that and u dont need anyone to tell you what to do.. PRIDE they call it.. i need to find back my first love.. simple first love for Jesus Christ.. where Jesus alone is enough..

restore to me the joy, i have in You...

世界唯一的你

2008-02-18T23:20:00.005+08:00

haha.. no no you dont have hearing problems! the default song u are hearing is the song in the video.. SAME! SURPRISE!! haha.. but i really love this song.. that day.. ermz which day was it.. last wk i tink.. i actually listened to this song for about 30 times in a day.. one thing is i really love singing and this song requires quite alot of technique so i always listen over and over again and i like to try in ktv... and it has very very meaningful lyrics too.. woo.. love it.. enjoy!
i love the last line.. 就是世界与我为敌, 我也愿意, 我什么都愿意.. woo.. i would love to find the person whom i can sing this line to.. :)

世界唯一的你
是你
第一眼我就认出来
这是命运最美的安排
是我
让你过长的等待
我们只要现在深爱
幸福就来
恨我来不及参于你的过去
抱歉让你等待
我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半
这个世界唯一的你
是我拥有的奇迹
对我说的一字一句
都是我们的秘密
紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就是世界与我为敌
我也愿意
我什么都愿意
过去所有的悲哀
都只是寻觅我唯一
勇敢
真爱
照亮了漆黑的夜晚
寻找了一次一辈子
再不分开
恨我来不及参于你的过去
抱歉让你等待
我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半

是一个奇迹
对我说的一字一句
都是我们的秘密
紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就是世界与我为敌
我也愿意
我什么都愿意

我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半

就算让我伤尽天理
我什么都愿意为你
紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就是世界与我为敌
我也愿意
我什么都愿意..

Crosswalk.com rocks!

2008-02-14T00:30:00.008+08:00

WWW.CROSSWALK.COM has the best christian materials around.. there is a part which you can subscribe to their daily devotion.. there is this particular one that i really like.. it is called Today God Is First(TGIF) it's very very good.. i tink i mentioned in the earlier posts about some articles they have.. yesterday i read one more very good one again! here u go:

Being a Person Under Authority

Matthew 8:10
..."I tell you the truth, I have not found anyone in Israel with such great faith."

The centurion came to Jesus and told Him of his servant who was paralyzed and in terrible suffering. He came to Jesus because he believed He could heal him. He told Jesus of the matter, and Jesus was willing to come with the centurion. But the centurion would not have it. He knew that Jesus, being under the authority of Heaven itself, did not have to see the servant to help him. The centurion understood authority. He understood that he himself had certain rights that his position granted him to have power over situations and people. He also was a man under authority. The centurion understood Jesus' position and what power that position held in Heaven-the power to heal his servant if He chose to exercise that authority.
When Jesus saw that the centurion understood this principle of authority and that He did not have to visit the servant to heal him, He acknowledged the centurion's faith. Jesus knew it took great faith to understand authority and whether He had the authority to do what was being asked.
God has placed a system of authority in our world that requires faith to operate under its boundaries: fathers over sons and daughters, employers over employees, government leaders over the people, church leaders over church members. These are authority structures God has placed in our lives to protect and guide us to His will. Some confuse position with worthiness or qualifications of that position. It is the position that God works through. The fact that an authority may not be a Christian may have no bearing on whether God can work through him as your authority. It is only when that authority counsels against a biblical mandate that we should not follow that person's guidance. The hand of the king is in the hand of God.
Today, we find few who understand this system of authority God has ordained. It requires great faith to operate in this realm. Yet Jesus said that when we understand this, we demonstrate the kind of faith that He rarely sees. Be a person of rare faith. See the authorities placed in your life as those God is using to protect you.

Authority??? was just debating with sheila about something like this the other day.. most of the time people come into church and just get so confused.. the worst thing is they dont know they are confused and they just get into this vicious cycle of chasing after positions and leadership roles in church.. positions is so often misunderstood as authority in church.. the only lasting and eternal authority comes from heaven.. only through the name of Jesus we have true authority.. so many times we see people coming in and work so hard and after being a leader suddenly feel so disillusioned about life in church and leave without a word.. i was like that i must admit.. after coming to CHC for 3 months and joined usher ministry and i got into the race for positions.. i wasnt exactly sure what i was doing and i just knew that holding the coms set is so seh.. i was so proud the first day i held that, walking around in the stage area.. it come to a point that for a period of 6-9 months there was not a time i was serving and not holding the set.. i became a "stage" specialist and i could do stage duty for big days! man i was so proud.. but there was a day i was doing stage 3 as pastor's runner and i was just waiting for him to come out of guest room.. i was standing there and asking myself WHAT AM I DOING ALL THESE FOR??? something is not right here.. i am definitely not doing for God and God only.. serve God serve God.. we always say it every wk.. just saying without really meaning it.. i am not serving God.. i am serving myself.. my own desire to rise up and be a leader.. same for cell group.. who dont wan to lead praise and worship.. everybody wants to sit in front.. to preach to talk and to be at the top.. but what is the motive in the heart??

when i begin to tink back that day i really tink it is so silly.. it is just like another CCA.. going to the top like last time i use to work so hard for in photographic society in AHS.. then when i become vice chairman i just suddenly drop the baton and become so slack that my teacher in charge have to make me write a letter to convince her not to sack me as vice chairman.. it is the same.. working for position not for passion..

that day when God spoke to me about this issue, and when i read this edition of TGIF, i decided that the next time i play guitar for Cg, lead P&W, give offering msg, i am going to have the right attitude.. through having the right attitude you will have the right authority.. the only rightful authority comes from heaven and can only be given by the Holy Spirit.. when u know who and what is backing you up, you will be confident and you will be able to lead in all circumstances, even without the com set hung on your belt, without the name tag of a CGL, without sitting in the first row,even when u dont feel that you are doing fine.. with the authority of God, you can speak to mountains and command angels.. why waste the legions of angels.. they are all employed by God to help you but most of the time we are the ones who make them unemployed..

i remember bro bob told me a story before.. in the world war 2, there is a commander from US that is caught captive by the enemies in the woods of malaysia.. he was tortured, beaten up and treated like shit so much so he wished he died.. everyday he wished that God will bring him back to heaven.. bcoz they are so deep into the forest, they are cut off from the world that they actually did not know that the Japs have surrendered.. even though the war is won, the US commander continued to suffer everyday, beating, humiliation and all the torturing.. he thought there was no way he would survive this as he grew thinner and more frail as the days go by.. there was one day he heard something from afar which made he rise to his feet.. there were US troops approaching and they are announcing something..
"surrender your weapons.. your country have surrendered.. the war is over.."
as the commander look towards the direction from which the sound come from, there was a soldier holding on to a piece of document.. as they approached, it was a copy of the document that the Japs signed on they surrender.. at this moment, the commander gathered all the remaining strength that he has and stood up saying "DROP YOUR WEAPONS, THE WAR IS OVER AND MY COUNTRY HAS WON THE WAR!"
it is not the piece of document that gave him the strength and courage to stand up and proclaim his victory.. it is the knowledge, the revelation that the war is already won..
similarly.. it is not the document God gave us, which is the bible that will give us the strength to proclaim our victory, but it is the revelation that JESUS IS VICTORIOUS that will give us the strength and authority to proclaim to the stupid devil that he is defeated.. we must always know who is backing the bible up..

woo~ how true.. bro bob told it in such a good way that my hair stood on ends when i heard the story.. the bible is a normal book until we know who is backing up the bible.. the surrender document is a piece of 大便纸 until you know the authority behind the piece of document..

so dont seek for promotions, position.. know the true authority behind all these and seek for that.. it is where we find true victory!

true victory= i will not be emo on vday! it is a my personal decision! :)

All The Earth Will Sing Your Praises

2008-02-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

nice song by Paul Baloche.. i would seriously considering singing this song the next time i get to lead praise in CG.. hope shan dont mind.. meaningful lyrics.. i love it! my valentine's day song to God! :)

You took, You take our sins away oh God
You give and gave Your life away for us
You came down, You saved us thru the cross
Our hearts are changed because of Your great love

You lived, You died, You said in three days You would rise
You did, You're alive
You rule, You reign, You said You're coming back again
I know You will and all the earth will sing Your praises

No one, No name can rise above You Lord
One hope, One life will shine forever more
Your kingdom in heaven and on earth
Your children stand to sing of Your great worth