germany..

going to germany in 24 hours time.. having mixed feelings.. tink alot of people know about my reluctance to go there.. program sucks and timing sucks.. 4 deg is not a very nice place to be in.. but reluctance is not the strongest emotion in my heart right now.. disappointment is.. i wish i could type the reason here.. i thought i was a very direct and frank person but this time i couldnt be the usual mean me..

some friends arent friends until they need you.. and when they have something which needs your help, you are suddenly appreciated.. or is it someone like me is not important enough? maybe i always treat people like that and now God is teaching me a lesson in return.. in any way, i am not hard up..

i still thank God for people like all in N398, shan hubert, my old ahs friends, even lynette and grace who bothered to meet up or even asked to meet.. really appreciate that.. meeting with lynette today really lifted my spirits up.. and even daryl from 48 sent me a msg.. i was really surprised..

oh this trip isnt gonna be fun and joy all the way.. tough times awaits me and i covet ur prayers. hope 2 wks end fast and i will be visiting castles and museums in Frankfurt in no time..

till then.. bye!