Friday, February 29, 2008

EQ is very important..

the problem with a blog and being a christian is most of the time you dont/cant blog bad things.. what happen this afternoon happened when i am about to blog so i decided to blog my negative emotions anyway.. but i just went to pray and i hope everything will turn out good for the thing i am upset about..



another thing i discovered is EQ is very very important.. u may be the best student on earth having the best IQ but once u cant communicate u are equals to an idiot.. book knowledge can be acquired by locking yourself in the library and forcing yourself to absorb everything.. but interpersonal skills are not taught.. they are picked up by experience and interaction.. and if u are not humble enough to learn then u will never improve.. no wonder some people always get into trouble.

LOUSY EQ!!


i wrote tonnes about how this person i talked to last night on msn has such bad EQ but after my world record jog i decided not to post that tonne of stuff.. i better be good and edify..

LOUSY EQ!!


haha.. i am not going to be bothered with her anymore.. oops.. did i say she is a her.. and i talked to her on msn on 28 Feb thurs night?? oops.. did i say too much..


too bad................... anyway this EQ-less person i talk with has nothing to do with my negative emotions post previously.. she does not have the ability to make me blog such negative emotions.. why?? bcoz she has.........



LOUSY EQ!!



hahahahahahah...

Thursday, February 28, 2008

:(

i feel damn terrible now.. though my final poly exams are over.. feel damn bad..

Monday, February 25, 2008

Into A Spacious Place

Today's version of Today God is First is good again.. God yearns to bring us into a spacious place.. a place without limits, without boundaries.. not for rest not to relax but to set us up to step out in faith.. today i went to my spacious place..


Sungei Gedong Camp at Lim Chu Kang


i set off from tamp at around 12pm and i found myself home at 5pm.. and the thing is i only spend half an hour there and the rest of the time was either waiting for bus, on the bus, waiting for train or on the train.. OMG!! i was thinking what did i sign myself into? a pool of deep shit..


but when i was there.. faith arise in my heart.. i got a strong and good feeling about everything minus the distance.. i am going to like it there, minus the distance. it is just as though in the TGIF for today, God put me in a Peter situation, to the edge of my boat and ask me, would u step out and try out walking in a different way..



YES GOD I WILL STEP OUT!!




February 25

God's Motives

2 Samuel 22:20
He brought me out into a spacious place; He rescued me because He delighted in me.

Questioning someone's motives for their activities can become an overriding response to those to whom we relate. Wrong motives can result in broken relationships, poor business decisions, and falling out of God's will. Sometimes we do not know the motive of another person. It is wrong for us to assume what their motive is until we have confidence that we know their intentions. When we respond or react prematurely, we become judge and jury over them.

God has a motive for every one of His children. His desire is to bring us into a spacious place. He wants us to go beyond our borders of safety and security so that we might experience life at a level that goes beyond ourselves. What do you think of when you think of a "spacious place"? No limitations? A large, grassy field? Open air? These are positive images. Sometimes these spacious places encourage us to step out in faith into areas where we've never ventured. Sometimes we need to be rescued by the Lord. When Peter walked on the water, God was inviting him to a spacious place. He went beyond the borders of his boat and ventured into a whole new world. He didn't have complete success in his venturing out, but it was a process that would lead him to the next victory in his faith walk with Jesus. Sometimes failure is what is needed in order to move us to the next level of faith with God. However, we must be willing to fail and let God rescue us.

The Lord delights in this process. His motive for His children is always love. It is always to bring us to a new level of trust and dependence on Him.

Friday, February 22, 2008

I WANNA BE A POLICE WHEN I GROW UP!!

When i grow up.. i wanna be a policeman...











http//www.spf.gov.sg/career/so_intro.htm#top



Wednesday, February 20, 2008

做人难.. 做好人更难...

Matthew 7:14
"Because NARROW is the gate and DIFFICULT is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it"



was pondering about this just now when i was jogging.. it is so tough to walk in the path of righteousness.. no wonder the bible warns us that it is going to be narrow and difficult.. but everything is difficult until u find joy in it.. loving is a choice so loving God is a choice.. when u love, u do crazy things and nothing is impossible.. i remember in Jurong west days.. things were so simple.. love coming to church.. love taking train from tamp to boon lay.. love going overnight prayer meeting and cell group.. love serving.. love God.. knowledge and information has two faces.. one side makes people wise and effective.. another makes things complicated.. maybe that is why God ask Adam not to eat of the Tree of KNOWLEDGE of good and evil.. perhaps it was to protect Adam because he knows that when we know too much it might do us even more harm.. similarly when u know too much in church u become arrogant and complacent.. u think u have been there done that and u dont need anyone to tell you what to do.. PRIDE they call it.. i need to find back my first love.. simple first love for Jesus Christ.. where Jesus alone is enough..



restore to me the joy, i have in You...


Monday, February 18, 2008

世界唯一的你

haha.. no no you dont have hearing problems! the default song u are hearing is the song in the video.. SAME! SURPRISE!! haha.. but i really love this song.. that day.. ermz which day was it.. last wk i tink.. i actually listened to this song for about 30 times in a day.. one thing is i really love singing and this song requires quite alot of technique so i always listen over and over again and i like to try in ktv... and it has very very meaningful lyrics too.. woo.. love it.. enjoy!
i love the last line.. 就是世界与我为敌, 我也愿意, 我什么都愿意.. woo.. i would love to find the person whom i can sing this line to.. :)







世界唯一的你
是你
第一眼我就认出来
这是命运最美的安排
是我
让你过长的等待
我们只要现在深爱
幸福就来
恨我来不及参于你的过去
抱歉让你等待
我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半
这个世界唯一的你
是我拥有的奇迹
对我说的一字一句
都是我们的秘密
紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就是世界与我为敌
我也愿意
我什么都愿意
过去所有的悲哀
都只是寻觅我唯一
勇敢
真爱
照亮了漆黑的夜晚
寻找了一次一辈子
再不分开
恨我来不及参于你的过去
抱歉让你等待
我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半

是一个奇迹
对我说的一字一句
都是我们的秘密
紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就是世界与我为敌
我也愿意
我什么都愿意

我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半

就算让我伤尽天理
我什么都愿意为你
紧紧拥抱唯一的你
无可救药的坚定
就是世界与我为敌
我也愿意
我什么都愿意..

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Crosswalk.com rocks!

WWW.CROSSWALK.COM has the best christian materials around.. there is a part which you can subscribe to their daily devotion.. there is this particular one that i really like.. it is called Today God Is First(TGIF) it's very very good.. i tink i mentioned in the earlier posts about some articles they have.. yesterday i read one more very good one again! here u go:


Being a Person Under Authority

Matthew 8:10
..."I tell you the truth, I have not found anyone in Israel with such great faith."

The centurion came to Jesus and told Him of his servant who was paralyzed and in terrible suffering. He came to Jesus because he believed He could heal him. He told Jesus of the matter, and Jesus was willing to come with the centurion. But the centurion would not have it. He knew that Jesus, being under the authority of Heaven itself, did not have to see the servant to help him. The centurion understood authority. He understood that he himself had certain rights that his position granted him to have power over situations and people. He also was a man under authority. The centurion understood Jesus' position and what power that position held in Heaven-the power to heal his servant if He chose to exercise that authority.

When Jesus saw that the centurion understood this principle of authority and that He did not have to visit the servant to heal him, He acknowledged the centurion's faith. Jesus knew it took great faith to understand authority and whether He had the authority to do what was being asked.

God has placed a system of authority in our world that requires faith to operate under its boundaries: fathers over sons and daughters, employers over employees, government leaders over the people, church leaders over church members. These are authority structures God has placed in our lives to protect and guide us to His will. Some confuse position with worthiness or qualifications of that position. It is the position that God works through. The fact that an authority may not be a Christian may have no bearing on whether God can work through him as your authority. It is only when that authority counsels against a biblical mandate that we should not follow that person's guidance. The hand of the king is in the hand of God.

Today, we find few who understand this system of authority God has ordained. It requires great faith to operate in this realm. Yet Jesus said that when we understand this, we demonstrate the kind of faith that He rarely sees. Be a person of rare faith. See the authorities placed in your life as those God is using to protect you.



Authority??? was just debating with sheila about something like this the other day.. most of the time people come into church and just get so confused.. the worst thing is they dont know they are confused and they just get into this vicious cycle of chasing after positions and leadership roles in church.. positions is so often misunderstood as authority in church.. the only lasting and eternal authority comes from heaven.. only through the name of Jesus we have true authority.. so many times we see people coming in and work so hard and after being a leader suddenly feel so disillusioned about life in church and leave without a word.. i was like that i must admit.. after coming to CHC for 3 months and joined usher ministry and i got into the race for positions.. i wasnt exactly sure what i was doing and i just knew that holding the coms set is so seh.. i was so proud the first day i held that, walking around in the stage area.. it come to a point that for a period of 6-9 months there was not a time i was serving and not holding the set.. i became a "stage" specialist and i could do stage duty for big days! man i was so proud.. but there was a day i was doing stage 3 as pastor's runner and i was just waiting for him to come out of guest room.. i was standing there and asking myself WHAT AM I DOING ALL THESE FOR??? something is not right here.. i am definitely not doing for God and God only.. serve God serve God.. we always say it every wk.. just saying without really meaning it.. i am not serving God.. i am serving myself.. my own desire to rise up and be a leader.. same for cell group.. who dont wan to lead praise and worship.. everybody wants to sit in front.. to preach to talk and to be at the top.. but what is the motive in the heart??


when i begin to tink back that day i really tink it is so silly.. it is just like another CCA.. going to the top like last time i use to work so hard for in photographic society in AHS.. then when i become vice chairman i just suddenly drop the baton and become so slack that my teacher in charge have to make me write a letter to convince her not to sack me as vice chairman.. it is the same.. working for position not for passion..


that day when God spoke to me about this issue, and when i read this edition of TGIF, i decided that the next time i play guitar for Cg, lead P&W, give offering msg, i am going to have the right attitude.. through having the right attitude you will have the right authority.. the only rightful authority comes from heaven and can only be given by the Holy Spirit.. when u know who and what is backing you up, you will be confident and you will be able to lead in all circumstances, even without the com set hung on your belt, without the name tag of a CGL, without sitting in the first row,even when u dont feel that you are doing fine.. with the authority of God, you can speak to mountains and command angels.. why waste the legions of angels.. they are all employed by God to help you but most of the time we are the ones who make them unemployed..


i remember bro bob told me a story before.. in the world war 2, there is a commander from US that is caught captive by the enemies in the woods of malaysia.. he was tortured, beaten up and treated like shit so much so he wished he died.. everyday he wished that God will bring him back to heaven.. bcoz they are so deep into the forest, they are cut off from the world that they actually did not know that the Japs have surrendered.. even though the war is won, the US commander continued to suffer everyday, beating, humiliation and all the torturing.. he thought there was no way he would survive this as he grew thinner and more frail as the days go by.. there was one day he heard something from afar which made he rise to his feet.. there were US troops approaching and they are announcing something..
"surrender your weapons.. your country have surrendered.. the war is over.."
as the commander look towards the direction from which the sound come from, there was a soldier holding on to a piece of document.. as they approached, it was a copy of the document that the Japs signed on they surrender.. at this moment, the commander gathered all the remaining strength that he has and stood up saying "DROP YOUR WEAPONS, THE WAR IS OVER AND MY COUNTRY HAS WON THE WAR!"
it is not the piece of document that gave him the strength and courage to stand up and proclaim his victory.. it is the knowledge, the revelation that the war is already won..
similarly.. it is not the document God gave us, which is the bible that will give us the strength to proclaim our victory, but it is the revelation that JESUS IS VICTORIOUS that will give us the strength and authority to proclaim to the stupid devil that he is defeated.. we must always know who is backing the bible up..


woo~ how true.. bro bob told it in such a good way that my hair stood on ends when i heard the story.. the bible is a normal book until we know who is backing up the bible.. the surrender document is a piece of 大便纸 until you know the authority behind the piece of document..


so dont seek for promotions, position.. know the true authority behind all these and seek for that.. it is where we find true victory!



true victory= i will not be emo on vday! it is a my personal decision! :)

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

All The Earth Will Sing Your Praises



nice song by Paul Baloche.. i would seriously considering singing this song the next time i get to lead praise in CG.. hope shan dont mind.. meaningful lyrics.. i love it! my valentine's day song to God! :)



You took, You take our sins away oh God
You give and gave Your life away for us
You came down, You saved us thru the cross
Our hearts are changed because of Your great love

You lived, You died, You said in three days You would rise
You did, You're alive
You rule, You reign, You said You're coming back again
I know You will and all the earth will sing Your praises

No one, No name can rise above You Lord
One hope, One life will shine forever more
Your kingdom in heaven and on earth
Your children stand to sing of Your great worth

Sunday, February 10, 2008

WHEN HUMAN LOVE FAILS....



WHEN HUMAN LOVE FAILS, LET THE LOVE OF GOD KICK IN...




pst kong said this phrase in his this prayer after renewing the vows of all the married couples in church today.. it was such a sweet moment.. i kind of had mixed feelings.. feeling a little sour but filled with hope for my own marriage in the future.. but it is the above phrase that impacted me the most..



she used to say she wants unconditional love, love that dont want anything in return.. i thought that was insanity.. how can a human ever give such love.. little did i know it was not about me.. it was about God.. when my love and strength fail, it is time for God to step in.. God has to be in the picture.. maybe i am not mature enough to understand that.. maybe i am not ready to handle all these right from the start..



pst kong's preaching just pierce my heart today.. it is like a powerpoint presentation showing me point by point why things went wrong and how i was inadequate as a partner..as much as i talk about it, the thing about guy being a leader never seem so important to me.. the thing about putting God in the center of the picture was never of that high priority to me.. prob it realli shows my immaturity.. maybe i should say this to you.. i am sorry.. sorry that when i should lead i didnt.. when i should show the way i didnt.. when i should say "let seek God for this issue..", i didnt.. sorry for not being a prophet, not being a priest, not being a king..



there is so much to learn.. before committing into anything more.. there is so much i would want to learn to give.. give without asking anything in return.. loving with the agape love of God.. i used to tink only God himself could love with the agape love.. hmm.. how wrong was i.. how could a 60 yrs relationship sustain without affairs, without divorce, without seperation.. it must be God.. it must be the agape love..








Lord Jesus.. i want to learn to love with your agape love.. i cant do it myself.. i ask of you to help me to learn all that i can and i need.. my mind may tink it is impossible but put into my spirit the willingness to love.. i ask of you for a happy marriage in future.. my family might not be perfect but i believe in you i can have a happy family in future, one which i can call my own and be proud of.. thank you Jesus.. Amen...

Thursday, February 7, 2008

HAPPY CNY YEAR!!!

i decided to put all unhappiness aside and celebrate CNY! so to everyone,




HAPPY CNY!!



it's gonna be such a long day today.. but yesterday i still went to CHINATOWN with sheila jang!!!





she was the only friend who wanna go with me.. haiz.. forget it.. dont talk about it le.. hope your BF wont get all his diver friends to camp outside my house and prepare to humtam me.. haha..




but it was shiok.. walked about 5 hours there and experienced all the different kinds of crowds.. got the kind whereby the people in crowd will say "alot of people meh? hao siao one every year the tv" then as u go to the main street and the people will say "wah kao.. everyone dont need to eat reunion dinner ar? so many people" then u reach the main junctions of the streets and the people will say " walk where?? left?? right?? straight?? " and before they make up their mind they got push to the general crowd flow direction.. but overall was fun.. atmosphere not as good as last yr but still ok..





the way they shout for business is funny.. one said this"三块三块,老板不在乱乱卖!" hahahaha!!





but sad thing is sheila didnt find her new yr goodie and the red cover egg rolls.. haha.. try harder next yr!! dont wait for too much discount!!





another sad thing is i dont get to go mustafa.. which according to her is the best shopping mall that sells everything except nice clothes.. haha.. maybe during deepavali? oh ya i saw chris and jennifer there..

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

dont misunderstand me..

if you are reading this, which i tink you would, pls dont misunderstand me.. i dunno why everytime i try to explain something it just turn out to so ugly.. i nv want things to turn out ugly.. there are things that i do that is really sincere.. haiz.. tink i should stop explaining.. i should not try to prove anything to anyone, otherwise most of the time things will just get worst.. i feel so limited and restricted..


can anybody slow down and try to understand what i am tinking?? hello i am a human!! HUMAN!!!


*frustrated*

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

BAD DREAM!!!

i hope this is not a sign of what is to come!! pls GOD!!! PLLLSSSSSS!!! NOOOO!!! PLSSSS!!!!!!

Monday, February 4, 2008

Fortitude

Svc was VERY VERY GOOD!!!


wah very very long never attend this kind of service already.. like those kind where you dont care who sits next to you but u go all out and reach out to Him.. ARRRRRRR GGGOODDDDDDDDD!!!!


thank you Jesus! :)



CG was good too.. u know the Holy Spirit is very real.. it's amazing because you cant see Him but He is always there and He responds when u call upon Him.. today in 2nd worship it was just as if He came and walk among us.. and i felt Him touched me.. just like a father will pat his children on their heads when he come back from work.. my father used to do that to me when i was younger.. in sec sch day.. my dad isnt the most perfect dad u will find around.. he has affairs outside all these years and always quarrels with my mum but he loves us.. he loves me the most.. he always tell everyone around that he dotes on me the most.. so he will come back and just pat me on the head and my siblings do not get that.. and i will feel such warmth inside of me when he does that.. it makes me believe that no matter what happens he still love us and he is still a very good father in my sight.. the Holy Spirit gave me that warmth today.. just a touch and i was so soaked in that warmth and presence.. it is so so assuring to know u are believing and living for someone who is so alive and real.. :)


Sheila Jang.. if u are seeing this!! hang in there!! God will never give up on you.. david will never too! :) happy birthday anyway! :)


aiya i am just in such a chirpy mood.. God is so good.. i know i will never outgive Him.. i gave Him something so so so precious to me.. and He is giving me something that is priceless to Him in return.. if u dont understand what i am saying, it is ok.. bcoz i dont really comprehend my joy right now also.. haha.. but it is from God.. and it is very good..