i thank God that i let Him take control and things didnt go as bad as i thought it would be.. haha thank my listening ear on sunday night too.. i am just happy to be in this course bcoz i know it would be good for me in future.. changes are coming my way and i pray for tenacity and stamina to run this 5 months.. :)
this is the 100th post.. haha i know it is supposed to be celebration but i just need to say this.. my blog tells me that the top 2 googled names that lead to my blog are as below:
1) Jill McCloghry
2) Sheila Jang
haha why i am saying this again man? just 2 days back i was just telling Sheila about this happening and today when i go back to my blog again *WAHH* that person(guy i suppose) googled her again! haha come on if u wanna talk to her then just go and talk to her.. dont stalk people! hahahaha! in case you dont know who is Jill McCloghry, she is a song leader in Hillsongs. so Sheila, u are in the same level of popularity with a Hillsongs song leader and i tink that tells something about u! anyway all the best for ur exams Jang!
oh ya.. i am like in a crossroad now.. i dunno which is more worthed it.. a dream or a conference that can change my dreams.. does it matter which department i go if i will only stay 4 years? can this conference make an impact for more than 4 years? haiz.. God speak to me somehow please...
alright time for cg.. i am going guitar practise so bye bye.. i really hope God will speak later.. doesnt feel good to be standing on the crossroad..
the good is the enemy of the best.. sometimes u just know it when it is not the best, just the good.. gut feelings nv go wrong.. maybe i watch too much Heroes, or i do really have superpowers.. but i will wait for the best.. only a matter of time..
haha not related but fibi is so cute.. she keep wanting to get on my lap when i am watching Heroes and typing this.. and now after i put her down she is waiting for me to pick her up again.. stupid dog.. haha..
omg.. how sad can a song get.. this is a super sad song but i have no idea why i kept listening to it.. and i wonder where those negativity come from sometimes.. haiz..
oh i finish the KiteRunner and must say that it is really good.. like which book i read and i nv say it is good u all must be wondering.. i think of all the books Little Prince is not as good as i expected it to be.. the rest like Last Lecture, 5 People You Meet in Heaven, Tears of the Desert are all very good and KiteRunner is one of the best.. it really speak about the deep secrets of every single one of us.. skeleton in the closet we used to hear them say.. we all are sure to have some thorns in our lives that continues to haunt us everyday. be it something wrong that we did or something right we didn't do. it may not have anything to do with us even sometimes, we just saw someone doing some stuff that we will never forget for whole of our lives.. such events we experience or or witness constantly haunts us and come back to us in vivid memories and we always wake up from those nightmares thinking if not i had.. if only i had not...
if only......
i had one of those nightmares the other day.. was resting in bunk and i woke up in a rude shock.. shocked that i am dreaming about that thing.. ashamed that it still haunts me in a dream when i thought i have conquered that area of my life.. God i really hope i will move on and be victorious.. i had many of these "if only" in my life.. too many for me to handle sometimes.. but i am not defeated that easily i thank God.. i havent given up through the years.. and what cannot break you will only make you stronger i heard this phrase from somewhere.. people came and tell me about their "if only" last wk.. several different ones came and shared with me.. and i thank God that through experiences, people grow and you grow to be determined to live life without "if only" , without regrets..
i am starting to read Dreams From My Father by Mr President Barack Obama.. i hope it wont stir up emotions about me and my father.. i was just telling my friend that day that i really miss my dad.. hmm hope the book will be good.. stay tuned for my review on that book! till then see ya all..
i always loved this song.. i blogged about it before and the lyrics just pierce my heart like no other song.. there will be times i need a touch from God so much and i will always put on this song and the presence will just come.. this video is about the song leader of this song,Jill McCloghry, whose baby died one wk before the live recording, and she went on to sing for God despite her circumstances..
This is my prayer in the desert When all that’s within me feels dry This is my prayer in my hunger and need My God is the God who provides
This is my prayer in the fire In weakness or trial or pain There is a faith proved of more worth than gold So refine me Lord through the flame
And I will bring praise, I will bring praise No weapon formed against me shall remain I will rejoice, I will declare God is my victory and He is here
This is my prayer in the battle When triumph is still on its way I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ So firm on His promise I'll stand
All of my life, In every season You are still God I have a reason to sing I have a reason to worship
This is my prayer in the harvest When favor and providence flow I know I'm filled to be emptied again The seed I've received I will sow
i love the part in the bridge:
All of my life, In every season You are still God I have a reason to sing I have a reason to worship
i hope i have the chance and the family of Auntie K have the opportunity to see this video.. be strong auntie K, i am praying for you i promise.. i speak healing into ur life.. pls get well soon..
and the magical number 200.. something to smile about on this emo day..
and i am supposed to send out this email that is computer generated from savedarfur.org but why not just put it here:
Hi,
Now that Barack Obama is our president-elect, there's a new hope for Darfur.
That's because Barack Obama has been a champion of Darfur in the Senate, and pledged "unstinting resolve" to stop the violence and protect the people of Darfur.
It's our job to make sure he keeps that promise. So I joined with thousands of others and sent a postcard to the next president, adding my voice to the call for Day One leadership on Darfur.
yes life is precious.. i heard a piece of news from mummy and i am so so so upset.. i hope u will be alright auntie K.. i will keep u in prayers.. reading Kite Runner sets my mind running again.. humans are like that.. fight and fight then get what you wan and when you get it u regret fighting in the first place.. when u gain something, it just means someone else lost it or that thing u gain has replaced something else in u.. i rmb blogging this before: It is because the human spirit knows, deep down, that all lives intersect. That death does not just take someone, it misses someone else, and in the small distance of being taken and being missed, lives are changed.
indeed when you get something, something else in u is lost.. it is an exchange, it is how the world is kept in balance.. so i what you are fighting for worth it? it is worth what you are going to lose as a result of gaining that? think before u commit to fight.. if it is, then fight with all you have, if not, cherish what you already have..
on a lighter note, i am happy there is something new to expect everyday now.. the number is 137... and that's for now! :)
