zero courage

david u call urself a soldier.. where is the courage when you needed.. simple words and u have no guts to say it out.. damn disappointed with u david.. whole life with ur joker attitude nobody believe what you say.. haiz.. somebody teach david what to do..


anyway BKK was damn fun..

i was running and the heavy rain came and i got stuck at Expo. it made me feel so emotional all of a sudden and this song played. how i wish i can have to courage to say all these. Aust in 2 days.. gonna miss u....

about church

for those who are really concerned, the answer is yes. Yes i do have some issues with the church and that's wat's stopping me from committing back for now.. I've been contemplating whether to post something like that for a long long day.. I just wanna say i pity the founder and pioneers of this great church.. With all the right motives and dreams from God they build they church from scratch, only to have the church's reputation destroyed by people who played little part in bringing the great church to where it is today.. Let's not talk about the snobbish attitudes that some certain high ranking leaders have.. Let's start with the most basic.. I'm about to start to doubt the sincerity of certain 'good' friends whom i have over the 7-8 years in this place.. People who come and tell me to join their cell and tell me how much they're concerned about me and my life.. To put it across in a not very nice and spiritual manner, everybody knows how to talk but there's just so much words can do.. There's always a reason why people decide to leave and wat makes you think that just a conversation over msn is enough to convince the person to come back.. If it's really so easy then i wont leave at the first place.. If you think being in church, or the limelight that you receive as a leader makes you all spiritual and on fire and puts you in a superior position then others then i'm very sorry you're wrong.. I read a book that accurately portray wat i wan to say.. It says When i'm in a dark tunnel, i want to be with people who love me, and walk with me, not stand outside and tell me how to walk out.. Dun get me wrong i'm perfectly fine with the church.. In fact i love the senior pastor and his teachings.. But it's black sheep like these people who created controversies for people outside to talk about.. It seriously helps more to be genuine and let the words of your mouth match the words of your heart.. Dun say you love until you really loved and only actions can show you love.. Controversies start from rumors and rumors always start from individuals.. People love to say that there is no perfect church or no perfect members, but dun let that be an excuse of not doing the right thing..
Having said all that, i muz say that i still love this church.. Simply bcoz God is in this church.. Been visiting a few places and there's nowhere like this church.. There are really sincere people around, some been with me since i stepped in years ago, you know who you are.. I'll stick around still bcoz despite all these stuff i've complain about, there still no place like chc and no one else can replace the God shaped void in my heart..

Resolution of The Year

i remember at the start of the year i said i wanted to do something in 2009.. i've been training for the something for since the start of the year faithfully although there are times where i slack off abit but i dare to say that i've been consistent till this point in time.. this sunday is 1/2 of the something organized by my company but i cant go because i am on course and i got grading on monday so i cant strain my body too much.. kind of disappointed as this sunday will be a good gauge of how i will fare for the real something in dec.. but anyway today i took the big step and sign up for the real something and it is PAID & CONFIRMED!!




here i come, my number 1 resolution 2009! i wanna be a finisher! everyone say with me: DAVE CAN FINISH!

RESTART

i wish i could depress the RESTART button and everything goes back to the beginning..

this is not as easy as i think it would be.. Honestly i think trusting God would have been an easier choice.. But the decision have been made..

Why did i do wat i did.. Being in a vicious cycle of troubles and trials really made me very tired out over this few years.. One problem not settle, another come to haunt me.. "All things work for the good" sadly doesn't apply in my life.. Say i'm without determination, call me immature i dun care.. I need to step out of the cycle and see things in a rational perspective.. I want to try something different, since wat i have been doing dun seem to work, Why not.. I need the breakthrough bcoz the weight of the family is on my shoulders, and i cant be insane to do the same thing over and over and expect a different result..

Work sucks seriously.. I love the career but i hate the job.. It really sucks life out of me and i need a break from all the routine.. Routines that i do wkly just bcoz it is only right to be doing them bcoz of who i am and wat i believe.. I need to find that original purpose of doing it.. Thus i promise myself never to be a hypocrite.. Never do it unless i am fully convinced of it's purpose again..

I'm sorry to those who believed, and those who look up to me for what i believed.. The soldier need time and needs a clear mind, a new sense of purpose before he can fight again.. I apologise for those whom i've hurt in the process of making this decision.. If you still have trust for me, trust me..

soldier no more..

the soldier could not find the much-needed courage and boldness to speak at the most crucial moment..

The wounded soldier could not fight for wat matters most anymore..

The tired soldier could not push on anymore..

Somebody pls tell me why am i hanging on..

passion

i came across a quote today in my surprise bus ride back from camp.. i take bus ok.. it is an achievement.. but anyway.. Inspiration from TVMobile says this:

After you found your calling, you work easily, you never get tired..

this makes me think alot...

History Repeats Itself..

If you wanna name it CHAMPIONS LEAGUE, then you got no choice but to expect this team to win it every single year!!

Mummy's angry!

oh the mum of the-boy-who-cant-stop-running recently expressed her displeasure of the-boy who-cant-stop-running training intensity..

Mum: 你在兵营跑, 回来家里也跑.. 这样多人跑到死掉了你还不怕!


Sis: 对咯对咯!!!


Me: 我的新名字叫 THE BOY WHO CANT STOP RUNNING! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

The Boy Who Can't Stop Running

Budhia Singh

The Four Year Old who Ran Forty Miles

Budhia Singh

The 4 Year Old who runs half marathons

Budhia Singh lives in Orissa, India where a third of the population live in slums and the state has the highest child mortality rate in India.

Since the age of three Budhia has been running 20 miles a day and is currently preparing to run a half marathon, his fifth in seven weeks.

Is Budhia's story an account of exceptional child talent or a darker tale of child exploitation.

His coach Biranchi Das, a local judo instructor, aims to train Budhia to become India's greatest marathon runner who will go on to win Olympic glory. His training regime begins at 4 o'clock in the morning in a typical blazing, misty dawn in Orissa.

His mother who worked as a maid for £3 a month has four children, of whom Budhia is the youngest. She was unable to feed and clothe them so took the heartbreaking decision to sell Budhia to a travelling peddler for £10. The peddler was a drunk who would beat the boy regularly. When Biranchi found him he was naked, wounded, and seriously underfed.

Biranchi Das

Budhia's talent for running was only discovered when Biranchi heard the young boy swearing at another of the Judo students. He ordered Budhia to run around the running track until he returned. Biranchi went out and forgot about the boy until his return six hours later. Incredibly, Budhia was still running!

Biranchi has no experience with athletics or long-distance running, but he has devised his own training programme which includes his belief that Budhia should not drink while running. He allows him energy drinks before and after a race, but never during one.

Budhia's coach wants him to take part in the Delhi half-marathon. No-one knows how he will cope with his first competitive race, but for Biranchi, it's an important step in his plan to turn Budhia into an elite, Olympic athlete.

On the day of the race, there is a problem. Budhia's fame has arrived before him, and with it controversy. He has been told that, due to International Rules, he can't run in the main race. He is so much the centre of attention that the race organisers agree to allow him to compete in the final event, a 6km race for all ages. At the after-race party, in the evening, he meets former Olympic champion Daley Thompson.

Tim Hutchins, the coordinator of the London Marathon, is outspoken: "Children shouldn't be training hard, for any sport, until they are fifteen or sixteen years old. For a child of three to be training hard is verging on the criminal".

Back in Orissa, the child welfare minister is taking a keen interest in the case. She thinks Biranchi is using Budhia's running talent and the media coverage to promote his own interests and believes the child's health will suffer. Biranchi disagrees and argues that he is trying toimprove Budhia's life. He is being properly fed, he is clothed, and he is receiving regular schooling.

Biranchi's plans are becoming ever more ambitious. He will have Budhia run from Puri to Bhubaneswar, then he'll run the marathon in Nayagarh, and from there they'll go to Milan. But, before this he will set Budhia an even greater challenge, one that will put him into the record books. He will run 70km, 42 miles, non-stop. With no water, this is a run that could put Budhia's life at risk.

If he succeeds, he will become the youngest endurance runner in the world, and there will be official observers ready to record his achievements.

On the day of the race, temperatures are expected to reach 90°F. Not even the elite Kenyan athletes run these distances in such temperatures.

Budhia has a police escort and medical backup. Six hours into the run and Budhia has covered 58km. Biranchi uses a water-bottle, like a carrot on a stick, to entice him to keep running. After 67km, Budhia stops. Exhausted and disoriented, the army doctor who has been overseeing the race, steps in. After a protracted delay, Budhia is taken to the central police stadium to recover. The army doctor is convinced Budhia is ill, suffering from convulsions and possible brain damage.

One of Many Lonely Sojourns

Despite stopping 3km short of the target, he has still set a new record and will go into the Limca Book of Records as the youngest ever endurance runner.

Biranchi insists that Budhia runs of his own free will, he likes to run, and is not coerced in any way. The authorities are not convinced. Three days later, on the basis of the Limca run, a police warrant is issued for child exploitation. Biranchi is arrested. He is ordered to bring Budhia to Capital Hospital where the child committee want him examined by sports scientists.

The medical team include a cardiologist, a paediatrician, a psychologist, and a psychiatrist. They found his pulse-rate high, his blood-pressure high, he was under-nourished, anaemic, and suffering a vitamin deficiency.

The child welfare minister has now banned Budhia from running any more marathons in the state.

source: http://www.mymultiplesclerosis.co.uk/misc/budhiasingh.html

this rekindled my fire of running Standard Chartered at end of this year! Call me the boy who cant stop running!

shag

if this kind of training continues.. i tink i will have to say bye bye to my 22 years old fats in no time.. haiz.. 不舍得leh.. haiz..

my wife

oh i am so mesmerised by this performance!!

got this from http://philpringle.wordpress.com

convicted me in a way i nv felt for so long..

我不是你想像那麼勇敢

小白 and I love this song so much.. we can sing it in the female high pitch key!

germany..

going to germany in 24 hours time.. having mixed feelings.. tink alot of people know about my reluctance to go there.. program sucks and timing sucks.. 4 deg is not a very nice place to be in.. but reluctance is not the strongest emotion in my heart right now.. disappointment is.. i wish i could type the reason here.. i thought i was a very direct and frank person but this time i couldnt be the usual mean me..

some friends arent friends until they need you.. and when they have something which needs your help, you are suddenly appreciated.. or is it someone like me is not important enough? maybe i always treat people like that and now God is teaching me a lesson in return.. in any way, i am not hard up..

i still thank God for people like all in N398, shan hubert, my old ahs friends, even lynette and grace who bothered to meet up or even asked to meet.. really appreciate that.. meeting with lynette today really lifted my spirits up.. and even daryl from 48 sent me a msg.. i was really surprised..

oh this trip isnt gonna be fun and joy all the way.. tough times awaits me and i covet ur prayers. hope 2 wks end fast and i will be visiting castles and museums in Frankfurt in no time..

till then.. bye!

tired

i am really tired..

mia

long time since i updated anything here.. reason is bcoz i am really really really really very very very busy with work.. book out on sat or even sun mornings are so common.. then still got alot of things to study and to do even after book out.. i forgot when was the last time i sat down and watch tv.. high key events are almost coming to an end.. couple of field camps more and going to germany then it will be all.. i hope i can end this course soon and i really need to meet some friends after i get more free..

trouble

i just said that troubles make a great man and i want to be a great man and troubles heard what i said so troubles came looking for me.. that was real efficient..

someone great..

i was having an interview with my superior and was just telling him about the mountain of pressure in my life right now and he told me something..

Great people I know all had very difficult moments.. and it is going through these difficult moments that made those people great.. because they went through the moments and became stronger and they tell themselves, if I can go through something like that, I can go through anything! and i never know i may be sitting in front of one such person now..

God i really hope this is common grace at work.. let it be a prophesy in my life!

back!

ok i am back blogging finally.. havent blog for a long long time as u can tell and reason is simply because i am too busy in this course.. for the first time i must say this course is really draining me away.. they say that it is only the beginning and the worst is yet to come but i am already feeling to stress and pressure.. pls keep me in prayers and i really hope to emerge victorious in 4 months time..

i've been reading as usual and the latest in my collection is this book by John O'Hurley called It's Okay To Miss The Bed On The First Jump and Other Life Lessons I Learnt from Dogs
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great book teaching about the most important lessons that we can pick up from man's best friend's behavior when we humans "of higher intelligence" always miss out..

here's what it says:

it seems that in our search for a life with meaning, there is a paradox that sometimes we let things mean too much. not matter what you are trying to grasp, sooner or later you would have to let go..

it is through the focus on our purpose that we learn that the quiet confidence of what we are is enough.... but no award, title or accessory can give you the quiet sense of completion that comes from a healthy self image..

Piece of advice from a dog:
when someone stops petting you, move on!

talking about books, i am obsessed in buying till a point my reading cannot catch up with my buying.. so now i have like 10 books that are not touched and i just bought another book 10 min ago.. oh man.. i gotta read more and faster!! dont blame me, blame Borders!

oh ya my 2009 new year resolution number 1 is out and here it is:


i wanna be a finisher this year and i got exactly one year to train up! jia you!! my motto shall be DAVE CAN FINISH!